The Angry Swan ~ Carlisle Cullen x Reader

Ch.22 ~ YOU PROMISED

Y/n's POV

I pulled up to my house that night with a sombre feeling, something just felt off and the more I pondered it the more frustrated I grew. I parked my car alongside Bella's truck and walked into the house.

I see my dad asleep on the couch and a recorded baseball game playing in the background. I walked over to him picking up the throw which had fallen on the floor and placed it over him. I pick up the empty beer bottles and take them to the kitchen bin.

I lean against the sink and sigh as I recall this night's events. The perfect night went to hell. I thought back to how it had started, how it went and what had happened.

Finally I thought about that last kiss Carlisle and I had shared, the feeling of his lips on mine returning. I bit my lip as I thought about the feeling it gave me; this longing to hold on till the last possible moment. It felt as if he was kissing me for the last time, as if he was just going to up and disappear from my life. And those thoughts scared me.

My phone beeping caught my attention as I looked down to see a message on mine, Seth's and Leah's group chat. I open my phone and see the message is from Seth, him and Leah inviting me down to LaPush this Saturday. I messaged him back saying I'd be there before shutting my phone off and heading up stairs with my evening apple juice.

I showered, brushed my teeth, took my meds and went to bed. My earlier thoughts still fill my mind. To say I slept rough that night is an understatement I was constantly tossing and turning trying to get my mind to slow down and stop overthinking that night's events.  But nothing worked.

Eventually I gave up and laid in my bed looking at where Carlisle would usually be laying. It felt empty not having him here and the bed felt warmer to the point I had to remove my top to stop myself from sweating so much.

The next morning I was up and ready for school an hour earlier than usual and decided to take a walk through the woods. I was walking around minding my own business when a growl and stick snapping caught my attention. I spun around looking left then right but saw nothing. I brushed it off and continued walking making my way back home. The route I took takes me in a circle from one end of my house to the other.

I heard a growl behind me this time turning in time to see something big and hairy jumping out from behind some bushes and off to the other side of the woods. I had slipped in surprise and fallen back on my behind.

I stood up panting as I looked around before sprinting back home. I skidded to a stop when I saw my dad coming up the drive. He held his hand out when I stumbled slightly then placed his hand on either shoulder.

"Woah, hey, what's wrong?" He asked, seeing my slightly frightened expression.

"Uh nothing just a ... a bird spooked me that's all." I said letting out a huff while dad chuckled.

"Really Y/n? A bird?." He asked and I nodded, he awkwardly scratched the back of his head patting my shoulder. "Alright, well I'm off, try to stay out of trouble okay?"

"Got it." I called back as he got in his car and drove off. I walked to the door calling inside for Bella who came down the stairs and pushed past me. "Someone's in a bad mood." I comment to myself as I watch her drive off.

I locked up the house then jumped on my bike quickly catching up to my sister's truck which was already halfway to school. We pulled up in the parking lot seeing Bella's small group of friends who waved us over. We walked over both looking across the lot to the empty parking bays. We looked at each other and I shrugged as we turned to her friends.

'Where are the Cullen?' I thought as I listened to Jessica rant about something I wasn't interested in. The rest of the day was spent either alone in the corner in class or listening to Bella's friends ramble about typical teenagers stuff.

My mind had begun to wander again as I thought about why the Cullens weren't at school and why they had all ignored my messages, even Carlisle.

That day Bella and I returned from school at different times. Bella didn't have a last lesson so she was allowed to leave an hour earlier than the rest of us. When I pulled up Bella's car was there and so was Carlisle. I jumped off my bike and walked over to him with a confused look on my face as to why he was standing at the side of my house on the footpath to the woods.

"Hey?" I said questionly as Carlisle looked at me with a look I could quite tell if it was guilt or regret.

He took a breath before he nudged his head towards the woods. "Let's take a walk." He said then walked off. Confused even more I trailed behind him as he led me into the middle of the woods. We stopped and he turned to me with a sad look.

"My family and I, we're leaving Forks." He said, making my breath hitch as I looked at him shocked. "People have begun to notice I'm not the age I'm saying I am. We... we have to leave Forks to keep our secret." The entire time he spoke he avoided eye contact with me.

I stood shocked as tears built up in my eyes but being stubborn I wouldn't let them fall. "Bullshit!" I exclaimed as I stepped into his line of sight. "This is about Jasper isn't it?" I asked in a demanding voice.

"Y/n I..." Carlisle started but I cut him off.

"You promised... YOU PROMISED YOU WOULDN'T LEAVE." I yelled as I hit his chest, tears rolling down my face. "I don't want you to go." I admit in a small voice.

I felt his arms hesitate as they wrapped around me. I cried into his chest before looking up at him. "Please don't go." I pleaded.

"I have to... I have to protect my family." He says. My eyes shed more tears as I stepped back shaking my head. Carlilse tried to step forward again but I backed up just staring at him with wet eyes.

"Just leave." I whispered as I dropped my head. I couldn't look at him. I couldn't stand losing someone else I loved.

"I'm sorry." I heard him say before a gush of wind blew past me. My eyes widened as I snapped my head up looking to where he was standing and not seeing him there. I spun around muttering "No." over and over as I tried to find him. Before I knew it my legs had started moving and I was running through the woods calling out to him.

I didn't look where I was going and tripped over a rock landing on the same path I had fallen on earlier that morning. Devastated I didn't have the energy to stand up instead I curled up in a ball on the ground and cried. I don't know when I fell asleep but when I came too I felt my body moving as if I was being carried.

I opened my eyes cautiously as I looked up to see a well toned and tanned man carrying me. I stared quietly at him for a moment wondering if I should speak. I saw him about to look down so I closed my eyes pretending I was still asleep.

Before long I heard radios and people muttering. I was still tired so sleep was quickly engulfing me again but before I passed out I heard two voices. "She's alright, just sleeping." The voice carrying me said.

"Thank you Sam, I got her." I heard my dad say then I drifted back into unconsciousness. I woke up again in my bed later that night. The first thing I noticed was a weight next to me. I turned as I saw Seth and Leah both hunched over the side of my bed sleeping.

Confused, I shook Leah awake who groggily got up and looked at me before tackling me in a hug. "My god Y/n you scared us." She said as I pulled away from the hug.

"What's going on?" I asked, she sat next to me and explained how Bella and I had been missing all the day before, last being seen leaving school the day before that. Apparently we had both passed out in the woods.

I nodded slowly as I processed everything she told me and remembered everything that happened with Carlisle. I felt numb. A tear slipped down my face and I felt Leah's hand rub it away. "Hey, you're okay now." She said as she pulled me into a hug and I cried into her shoulder.

I missed him... I missed Carlisle but now he is gone never to return.

~~~

A/n: Hey sorry I didn't upload over Easter just sort of focused on my Daryl Dixon x reader book instead. Definitely back to this now though.