What Love Is Supposed To Be/ Bangchan x reader

Chapter 7 | hands

3rd person pov:

After a while the two arrive at the mall. It's only 5pm, so of course the place is still very much alive.
"The mall?", (Y/n) asks, clearly a bit uncomfortable.
Chan nods:"The boys wanted to play in the arcade a bit and the mall has a rather big one."
The (h/c) girl sighs. She really hates going outside. At least when there a lot of people around.
As the two were walking through big crowds of people, Chan could see how stressed his crush is. Kindly he stops, offering her his hand and a kind smile. Unsure she simply stares at his hand.

(Y/n) pov:

I don't know what to do. Not matter how uncomfortable I feel right not, wouldn't taking his hand make things awkward? Especially since I rejected him..
Before I am able to keep overthinking, I feel some random person push past me, pushing me in Chan's direction. Chan, of course, has really good reflexes. Easily he catches me, saying jokingly: "I knew you'd fall for me one way or the other."
While he laughs a bit, I could feel myself feeling more and more embarrassed. Quietly I hide my face in his chest. His hands were still on my back, caressing lightly.
"Are you okay?"
"Sure", I mumble in his chest,"Just give me moment.."
I could basically hear him smile as he rests his head on mine: "We have all the time in the world."
The tall boy was still caressing my back gently, as he begins to hum quietly, calming me down more.
He really has a great voice.. parts of me want to hear him sing something for me. Maybe a love song? Who doesn't love a love song?
After a few moments to this, he takes his arms and head off of me: "We should go. The boys are waiting for us."
As he starts to back of, immediately wrap my hands around his upper body, hidding my face in his chest one more time: "Don't.."
"I can't hear you, when you talk into me like that", he jokes.
I look up at him, staring into his eyes: "I want to stay like this a bit longer."
My face feels hot and Chan starts to blush a heavy shade of red as well. Again he lays his arms around my body. His head returns to the position it was in before. Only my face wasn't hiding anymore. I let out a sigh, feeling my face cooling down. Being held actually feels kind of nice..
Every was comfortable, until a small kiss is placed on my forehead. Confused I look up at Chan, who was still blushing.
"I hope that didn't cross a line..", he says, looking away shyly.
I sigh, resting my head against his chest one last time: "It's okay, but only this once. The next time, I'm gonna smack you.. hard.."

After a few minutes, Chan takes me into a fast food chain. He looks around, before waving with the hand, that is not holding mine. Together we walk over to his friends.
I feel kinda nervous. Even though I see them at school a lot, I haven't really talked to them before.
They are all greeting each other, before on of them, Han says: "I'm surprised she actually agreed to join us." I feel awkward. Han's talking to Chan as if I am not there. It's not like I stand next to Chan or something..
The boy holding onto my hand, just nod, agreeing with his friend. Still feeling awkward, I just keep my mouth shut, until I see a familiar face.
"Felix!", I semi yell excitedly. His eyes sparkle as he sees me. Immediately he stands up, giving me a big hug, that I return, while still holding Chans hand.
"Since when do you go out?", Felix asks jokingly while breaking off the hug. All I can do to his question is sigh: "My parents.."
My friend just nod, giving me a pityful smile, before sitting down next to his friends.
"Did you already order?"
The boys nod, as Chan turns to me.
"Are you hungry?"
I simply shake my head, which makes him frown.
"You haven't eaten all day."
"So?"
"You need to eat something."
Not really responding I just look at the floor. Chan is still frowning. Looking down at me.
"What does (y/n) eat?", He asks, turning his face to Felix, who had a smile on his face as he noticed that his two friends, Chan and I, are holding hands.
"Anything with meat basically", he answers, unable to hold in his girly giggles. How a guy with such a deep voice is able giggle like that is something, I will never understand how that works..
As Chan nods, he starts walking away to order, letting go of my hand. I don't stop him, instead is just stare at my hand.
A bit sweaty... With my other hand, I lightly touch the skin, Chan was touching just a second ago. And still warm.. his warmth... I kinda miss his warmth..

3rd person pov:

After the friendgroup is done eating, they leave the place. (Y/n) on the other hand, didn't even look at her food. Instead she just took it with her, not wanting to waste any.
While the friends joke around like they always would in school, the girl feels like the odd one out. She simply walks behind them, staring holes into their backs. That's the reason she didn't want to join Chan and his friends. Something in her guts just knew something like that would happen and she hated every second of it.
In a few minutes they arrive the arcade. The boys all cheer, running their own way, leaving (y/n) behind again. She can't help but sigh, as she looks for a chair to sit down. Knowing this will take a long time, before she will finally be able to leave again.

As time passes, her stomach begins to growl. For a second she thinks about taking her food out and eating it, until she noticed the others having fun.
"No.. I can't..", she whispered to herself, ".. I'll just deal with it.."

(Y/n) pov:

My stomach starts to hurt a little, but it's okay. It hurt worst before. Also, I can just eat when I get back home!
Bored I look around, hoping to find anything interesting. When my gaze lands on Chan though, I pause for a second. He's talking to a girl. Not that that's a big deal, but how he's doing it just.. hurts? He's being all giggles and smiles. Like he's.. he's a flirt, isn't he? Again I look down at my hand. The hand Chan used to hold. I've never held hands with anyone before..
My gaze returns to Chan, who was giving the girl a big and tight hug, just like he hugged me today.. hands on her back and head on her head.. they stay like that for what feels like eternity, before separating. He gives her one of his dorky, loving smiles, before taking her hand and walking to one of the many machines to play.

"I'm so dumb.."