Alone

Behaviour

It's now 5am and after two hours of sleep I am awoken by another nightmare. Despite this I don't particularly want to have a conversation with Bucky or Nat, anyone really. I then proceed to spend the next three hours procrastinating getting up. Reason, it's a Monday. I get up before getting dressed and running down the stairs.

'I'm going to school, bye guys.' I yell making sure not to wait for a response. I run to school before getting a lecture on tardiness.

'Yea, alright sorry. I missed my alarm.' I stated rolling my eyes sitting down getting out my book. To say I got in trouble would be an understatement. Luckily, Peter, MJ and Ned are only in one of my classes.

'Miss Lard, please get your guardian to sign this behaviour slip.' Mr Foster told me handing it me. I have a better idea, sign it myself. I would get one of the Avengers to sign the slip but that is not a lecture I need or want. I somehow manage to get into even more trouble today. Not to mention I will eventually have to face the lecture from the avengers about running away and stuff. I finish my day with a surprising amount of behavioural slips and a detention that I am in fact not going to. I walk out to see Natasha waiting for me. I roll my eyes and pretend not to see her walking past.

'Harvey don't even try,' I hear her say. I reluctantly go towards the car and not wanting to draw attention to myself don't even argue the car seat.

'How was your day?' She asked probably making everything more awkward.

Not bad, yours?' I replied glaring with a deadly voice.

'Not great had to listen to Clint and Bucky plan their lecture,' She said condescendingly.

'Sounds thrilling, I am absolutely overjoyed they are actually going through with that.' I replied nonchalantly rolling my eyes glaring at her.

'You weren't going to avoid it forever.' Nat said as the car then proceeded to fill with silence instead. We got to the compound and walked in before being greeted by Clinton and Bucky.

'Take a seat.' Bucky said gesturing to the sofa.

'What is this an interrogation now?' I ask smugly getting no reply.

'Harvey, I know you are not used to boundaries and not being able to just run off but you can't.' Clint started.

'And the alcohol and the drugs is not only incredibly irresponsible but illegal.'

Bucky then began to speak,
'You broke my trust so as you can imagine there has to be consequences, your grounded and you have to have a good honest conversation with Clint and I.'

'Ok, what are the grounds or this grounding,' I replied in a bored tone (pun not intended).

'No phone, no leaving compound besides for school, you are not walking, limited internet connection and you are only allowed to use the training room with Bucky or myself.' Clint responded arms crossed.

'Limited internet connection?' I questioned in a angry uninterested tone.

'Stark has made sure you can only use educational resources,' Bucky looked at me suspiciously.

'Alright, now if you don't mind I have stuff to do.' I stated roughly before leaving the room.

A few hours went by and I did next to nothing before being called downstairs for dinner.

A very awkward conversation

'So, Harvey how was your day?' Bucky asked as I cringed.

'Do we have to do this? Really?' I asked pleadingly in an even more hostile voice.

'Maybe you should think twice next time you want to do something illegal. Trust me the consequences will be worse next time,' Clint replied as I looked around the table at these "superheroes."

"Fine, my day was alright,' I say taking a bite of the food portion I then proceeded to stand up.

'I'm full,' I state sounding uninterested and almost asleep walking to the sink.

'You have to eat more than that,' I hear Bucky say.

'I had a massive lunch.' Lie, I didn't have lunch or breakfast.

'Fine, you can go to bed then.' Clint was the one who said that. I washed up my plate before saying,

'Goodnight,' I say rolling my eyes angrily and walking out.

'Goodnight doll,' I hear Bucky reply as I walk to my room. I collapse on the bed. I am actually going to go to sleep but only because I have nothing better to do. As I close my eyes I begin praying that I won't have a nightmare as I drift off.
...

'Miss Lard, you seem to be having signs of a panic attack.Would you like me to tell Mr Barnes.'

'N-no,' I managed to stutter before going into a full scale panic attack. I hear my door open and see a shadow.

'Harvey breathe with me,'

'In.'
'Out.'
'In.'
'Out.' I slowly start to calm down and register what is happening. I'm not upset just angry I punch the end of my bed the process Bucky's presence.

'Bucky?' I questioned.

'You want to talk about it?' Bucky asks me as I lean against the side of my bed.

'No, why did you come in?' I asked returning to my angry state.

'I heard you,' Bucky replied I think my anger upset him but oh well I will never let down my wall.

'Ok.' Is all I said getting onto my bed.

'Do you want me to go?' Bucky asked standing up. I shook my head and looked away. Bucky sat down on my bed. I don't know why but I just hugged him. I curled up on his lap and slowly drifted back to sleep. What are you doing Harvey you can't trust him you can't let your wall down.