Alone

Cracked

I did not enjoy my early wake up getting told to make my bed get changed and come spar with Natasha. I am normally a morning person but not when I went to sleep at like 4:00am.

Ugh," I groaned as Nat knocked me to the
ground again she wasn't kidding when she said she was going to be harsh. I don't know if she's being spiteful or what but it really is getting on my nerves right now. I wasn't an exemplar kid I didn't technically break any rules considering I was never given any to begin with. Besides of course the grounds of my punishments. This was my first time training since I started at the Avengers, this was a punishment and god I wish I didn't have to do this.

"Focus Harvey, to defeat your opponent you can't give them the upper hand," She said.

"If I shoot them with an arrow, then they won't get the upper hand," I said standing up again annoyed.

I'm getting angry since she didn't even respond she just pinned me to the floor by the back of the neck. I just want to rush at her.

"This isn't a game! you need to be at your best other wise you will be dead!" She said

I knocked her off of me,

"Seriously! I was doing perfectly fine before any of you came along!" I said standing a mere feet away from her,

"I remember recklessly endangering yourself just like last night," She said

"Is that what this is about? really look I needed to clear my head so I decided to bash a few end of story!" I said angry

"Yeah well that's not how we do things here," She said

"Well if I recall I didn't exactly accept being an avenger so I can do as I please," I said

I punched she ducked I roadhouse kicked she caught it,

"Well as long as you are here you follow the rules we set out for you, if we say your curfew is 8PM we expect to to come in that door at 7:30PM," Nat said dropping my foot,

I punched again and again, she ducked and blocked.

'You didn't technically ever give me any rules in the first place. I just got punished for literally everything.' I yelled at her sparring back falling miserably if I'm honest.

"Not to mention I don't want to even live here I was forced into it." I continued actually managing to hit Natasha.

"Yes you do we all know you came here originally for a reason." She said oh my god Nat was driving me crazy.

"And I assumed we didn't need to give you rules it should be pretty self explanatory what is and isn't allowed,' She said aggravating me more.

"I don't need this," I continued yelling. I was about to leave but suddenly I'm tackled to the ground.

"You never turn your back to your enemy," She said causally.

I was getting really really angry.

"Get... off of me," I said in a low devilish voice.

"Not until you explain why you are so angry all the time," She said persistently.

"None of your business!" I said still struggling to get up.

I finally broke free of her grasp.

"You need to back off!" I screamed.

"Make me," She said with a playful glint in her eyes.

"Tell me what is so terrible that has you so angry," Natasha said.

"You really want to know!" I said fully beginning to rage.

"Yes!" She said ducking my high kick.

I was in full blown rage now, pushed to my breaking point.

"Because it was the only way I could survive!" I said punching and kicking which she dodged

"Anger was the only thing I had going for me!" I said punching again and she dodged

"If I didn't have my anger I would be just this pathetic child who let herself be her Fathers toy, experiment!" I said kicking towards her,

"Without anger I would be nothing! I wouldn't have survived! anger is the only thing that got me through all the years of pain! suffering! and everything else!" I said as I continued attacking Nat with my full blown rage.

'So please, just leave me alone.' I ran out the door as fast as I could checking the time running up to grab my school bag. I sprinted out the door and avoided everyone. Maybe they had gotten what they wanted they finally got me too crack.