Perfect World

Chapter 71

Chaeyoung POV

Its funny how life works. There's a choice where you can either sit on the side where its beautiful or choose the side where it isn't as beautiful. Except for that person who sits on the side where its not so beautiful had the choice to turn around and sit on the side that is. Sometimes you can't really choose the positive side though, there are obstacles, except the obstacles that can scar you to a point. How can you make yourself happy when you couldn't in the first place?

There was a thoughts in my head torturing me for years telling me to take my life away but I could never manage myself to do it. I see myself as a healer but not a killer. Not to me or anyone else. Except, having someone take my life away for me. That's a different story. I peered my eyes open and saw my house, there was a bright yet dull light illuminating it. I wanted to walk forwards towards it but I felt stuck. There's a halt was pulling me. I couldn't move. I looked down to see if anything was there but there was nothing, just my feet. I heard a giggle in front of me and a soothing laugh.

A familiar one.

I looked up and saw the sun shining down on the perfect grown fresh-cut grass with the little girl who was eating strawberries. She was lying on the ground on her back with an older woman next to her.

Mom.

Her long light brown hair was gorgeous, her smile was wide and she had my eyes. She was blowing bubbles gently with small splashes on her face from them popping. I felt my heart in my chest drop. I couldn't believe I was seeing her again but it was so long ago. I remembered this day, where my dad was at work, my mom stayed home playing with me and had food cooking inside. She took time off to have a day with me. I knew this is just a dream. This wasn't real. I tried to move again but it was no use. I just wanted to be with her. I clenched my jaw but the grudge wouldn't let go. The laughter was diminishing. I looked up again after struggling against the invisible object holding me down. I was moving farther away from the beautiful memory. My mind was messing with me and it was just unbearable to watch.

"Mom!" I yelled.

With that, everything froze. The world around me was now an empty void but I could see small dust particles moving slowly around my face and eyes. This is all a dream. Is this death's way for me saying goodbye to everyone? The space I was in was black and no light was being shown. I closed my eyes. I wanted this to end because this dream was too cruel to me. Its hurt but it was enlightening. To me, this was my dearest moment with my mom. My dearest memory of ours.

A cold shift went through me for a moment. I've always thought dying would just replay from the beginning, whereas I would get to see my whole life all over again. I still wasn't able to move, so I relaxed. Maybe this was it was all about. Sitting in a void forever.

Oh god.

Is this hell?!

Soon enough I felt a cold hand on my cheek, a
small glow was in front of me. I shielded my eyes by squinting.

What is this?

Finally, the glow died down.

And I see, mom?

"Hi, baby girl." Her soothing voice rang through my ears.

I looked up and stared at her wide eyed, she looked the same when I saw her earlier.

Am I dead?

I started to tear up and nuzzled my cheek into her palm.

"I miss you." I said.

"I miss you too." She said pulled me into her embrace but I could barely feel it as if she wasn't here.

It was cold.