I'm so sleepy and I'm writing I just have been feeling so numb but I've started to cry in random moments whenever I hear a song and it reminds me of you I just let myself cry even if I'm in public I'm just too sad. I'm finally giving you up and giving you up feels like giving up on love and I feel so lonely because I have no one to hug, people keep telling me how they are always there but I need physical contact with people I have been feeling so cold I feel like I need someone's warmth but I feel like everyone is so far away and I'm miles away too far to reach I'm just so sad and I feel pathetic for saying that I feel alone when I also keep pushing people away I'm not even sorry I know I'm a terrible person but I'm just not me anymore you always make me lose myself I need to let you go forever and I need to move on I love you and it sucks I'm a fool for you. //4.12.18-12:06 am
