After talking everything out it all hurt but I got to my room and the first thing I did was cry out loud but not as out loud for people to hear me and I just layes in bed trying to feel better, trying to stay away from the world I haven't eaten yet I always punish myself this is my self harm now not eating but I wrapped myself around in a blanket because as I saw in my calm harm app it's comforting and I have been here for hours healing my heart with Netflix on this honestly might be not as good as my other paragraphs but it's the way I feel right now I just wanna sleep.//4.25.18-7:51pm
