To My First Love

~When Can I See You?~

The question that pops in my head every day. My one big wish and I want nothing more; it is to finally meet you. There's nothing harder than long distance in a relationship. The hardest part is that unlike most, we have yet to meet face to face. Sure, we get by with a rare video call. Pictures, here and there... and a voice call every night. I live off your voice and I find so much comfort in that shelter. However, I'm searching forward for a new kind of comfort in physicality.

I dream of being able to be embraced in a warm hug. Both arms wrapped around me and mine around you.

Where our palms meet together. Our fingers intertwining and held tightly. Gazing at each other as if the Moon were in our eyes.

October is all I can hear... I am promised for October and my excitement is what is spilling. When you do me wrong, I can't help but think October will set me straight. When you make my heart full, I can only think about meeting you in October. It rings in my head and I just can only hope that I break a barrier between us. Where you can see my smile and we can talk without interruptions. I want you to find me charming in my ways, funny and see the bright, carefree side of me.

I'm growing to realizes that we might really not be right for each other however those who give up half way don't deserve love. When the moment is tough, you don't break loose! Any relationship can form so long as you both work on it and I'm realizing how much it takes to achieve happiness within each other. Though it feels like I pull the weight of longing, I know that our journey is long. Though I worry that in October our journey may come to an end... I want to vow to give everything I have to showcase my love. To show you that I want you in the most honest way.

I'm excited for us. Worry and joy contend my heart. You've given me the greatest pain and the most wonderous joy, soon and finally; we'll have October.