To My First Love

~Scenarios~

Sure enough, we've written romance differently than most. As most scenarios I play in my head never turn out, there are day dreams that the hopeless romantic will ponder.

I imagine perhaps in 5 years, we'll reunite again...

Scenario 1

Time has passed. You've made a successful life for yourself. Working hard and dedicated as always. Our friendship has lasted well, I never fail to send my support all along the way. Sending you birthday wishes ever year, greetings for every holiday and hearing upon your life from time to time. However, we talk more than ever in the few months that have gone by. Almost daily as before but remembering we are friends puts me in my place, I wouldn't dare to ruin our friendship if it meant scaring you off. We joke easily, share interests more than before and we grow learning new experiences from each other. Perhaps... I may slip. Patience from 5 years would do that and I let you know that I've always remained to have feelings for you. Silence overcomes us. I've done it now... I just couldn't help myself. You make it so easy to tell you exactly how I feel... Yet we don't talk for days. I believe I've scared you off and you won't respond to any of my messages. I profusely apologize but to no avail you don't reply. I await a week and by some miraculous timing of event, my parents seem to be out of the house and my brother is knocked out sleeping well into the afternoon that I'm forced to answer the door the moment I hear the bell ring. The dogs bark wildly as I attempt to calmly place them inside the kitchen. Finally, some calm as I open the large metal door. There I see you standing there. Tall and strong, you smugly smirk at me.

(Raza): Hi, I was just around the neighborhood and was wondering if you were interested in solar.

(Mei): Solar, huh? I don't know too much about it. Can you tell me more?

(Raza): Absolutely. Luckily, I'm available all day. Could I get your name, miss?

I feel my lips tug into a wide smile. I don't hesitate to run up to you as you take me into a firm embrace. How long I've been waiting to truly meet you. How long it's been since I chose to wait. Those days that felt painful when we were friends— Ah! I let it get to my head. You hadn't said why you were before me at this very moment. You flew all the way to my hometown... Why? You suddenly interrupt my thoughts, taking my hand into yours but you don't look at me. I try to peer up to see the look of your expression but you only stare at my taken hand. Then you tell me things beyond my ears. I'm really hearing you tell me your true feelings. Tears pool upon my eyes as I hear what you have to say. A real sense of familiarity and ache well in my chest. I've felt it always with you; Love.

Scenario 2

We'd return back to the roots. It's been years since but we're back on that MMORPG game. I remember where I left your character standing for the last time. How every day I log in and return to the spot. I'm waiting for you at the dock while you stand centre stage. How I regretted that I should have left you in a field of flowers but this is a new hideout spot. Mei-Yan would be dressed in her Victorian-esque styled dress and I've retaken the blindfold upon my eyes. I would be standing on the edge of the dock, staring out to the calm, slightly folding waters as I stare at the Ferris wheel to the left. Oh, how I can see the carousel in the far centre and recalling when we spent our first date here. As I'm distracted by the scenery in front of me, a pop-up message suddenly shows.

[Raza invites you for Passion Hug. Accept?]

Shakily, I press accept and in a flash I'm back in your arms. Just like the first day I met you and you picked me up. I can feel my heart beating out of my chest as confusion and my heart swells. You message me about your return and it's not until you say four words that shake my heart like an earthquake.

"I'm here for you."

I don't know what to do. My hands won't stop shaking and my eyes can't stop darting around the room that I'm unable to distinguish if the room is spinning or not. I stay frozen; in a daze until I'm shot from the clouds. The sound of my phone ringing of a call— It's you. I hesitantly accept it and we start off exchanging mandatory courtesies before a silence befalls us. Awkwardness starts to creep but it's as if you've been building the courage because you start to confess what has been on your mind lately. You tell me how miserable you've been. How you miss the relationship and your take on his actions prior. I tell you that I'm torn. I've been waiting for you but I gave up yet I don't exactly trust you. You don't let me continue to somber the hope because you declare how you'll show me exactly how I should be treated. You promise to give me more affection than I know what to do with. How I've been waiting for you to tell me this that I can feel my heart cave in.

"I love you."

An aching heart, a sigh and then...

"I love you too. You know it's only been you."

And for the first time in years, we both finally smile with true happiness. Only now, fortification and love will be our pavement for the long road. Love will find its' way back if you believe and we did.