To My First Love

~Thank You~

Through everything I may be feeling whether it's hurt or sadness. Whether bitter or angry, I can't direct those emotions towards you. For everything that happened between us wasn't completely a waste and never was I ingenuine at any moment. There were things you did wondrously and some things you failed to show. Every day, I take time to reflect a lot on what has happened. I see it that you did what you could and limited within our distance, I think a round of applause should be given. Together, overcoming long distance is never an easy relationship to build but we did. Upon this, we needed to look on the bright side and pros to what we experienced. At the end of the day, you deserve a 'Thank You.' I'd like to share my gratitude with you and see you for the highlights you've left upon me.

I would like to thank you for being there by my side when I needed someone. At the time where I needed love most, you were miraculously there. Through my rough days and long ones, you were an open ear for me. I only wish I had treasured and used it more but I kept a lot of my emotions and thoughts bottled up. I was defensive that I didn't take upon those opportunities... Even when I knew you would never judge me. I let my fearful mind hold my hands instead of taking yours but you knew that. So you planted your feet firmly to the ground and extended your branches. While I was being burnt by the radiating pressure, you were to cool shade that wrapped around me like a blanket. Thank you for standing beside me.

Another 'thank you' goes to your affection. Through our relationship, you've always been extremely busy. There never was a day that I didn't feel guilty to take a moment of your time. I often worried about your sleep, hunger, hydration and mental however, through all those factors you made time for me. A part of me was able to squeeze into your daily life and how grateful I was to spend a few hours with you. We got to enjoy time online and winding down for the evening. How lucky I was to feel closeness by sleeping beside you and intimacy through 1500 km away. In the small moments every day I got to spend with you were the happiest days of my life. You gifted me with a smile and never did it fall when I had your attention. Thank you for making me happy.

A 'thank you' follows your honesty. A 'thank you' belongs to your strength and a 'thank you' goes to your trust. In my eyes, you've always been noble. So proud and chivalrous and I've always sworn you were the light. You've taught me a lot of important lessons and you've been guiding me in many ways. You encouraged me to follow my passions and took notice upon my developing creativity. I am truly grateful to have your support in this way. I can say that there were important life lessons to take from your experiences that I've come to believe reigns true and applicable elsewhere. Courage and strength are what you gave me in multitude. A pillar you were for me and you've shown the way with your beaconing light. Thank you for teaching me.

There are many moments within our timeline that I'd like to appreciate and let you know what each significant memory we made had meant. However, it's not right to disturb and dig upon a grave. What has died must rest in peace and so I won't lay roses with thorns upon your feet. Sometimes there are things better to be left unsaid and somethings meant to be kept to yourself. We no longer have a luxury of sharing anymore and I suppose even when asked, I may vaguely reminisce of what was. I'm sure the memories we've made will soon be overwritten by copies and duplicates of gestures. You've surely experienced more but I know with what I've given, I've laid out an original blueprint. One that I am proud of because I was beautiful. A pure heart, a nurtured sapling and clarity like blue skies; those were gifts I gave to you and yours to keep in memory. You've thanked me quite a lot before, remembering it now has made me seen thickets of rotted sentiment but I've saved a thousand of your spoken gratitude to remind myself that you too deserve thanks as well.