Get through Senior year. That's all I needed to do then I would finally be able to get out of Oklahoma.
Head down and keep quiet. That's all I had to do and I would survive. That was my strategy.
Until I caught the attention of the wrong person.
M...
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•Happen - Emeli Sande• I never thought I could belong When I lay beside you I know that I'm home When I try but the words ain't coming I know exactly where it is I'm coming from
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Fuck.
The moment she walked out the door to leave me thinking, I quickly became aware that I hurt her feelings.
I didn't mean to.
It's not easy just expressing my feelings. More so towards the fact of what happened to me.
All the passing years I believed I was fine and moved on but apparently I had not and Chris' words were triggering.
Rubbing a frustrated hand down my face, I looked around the room finally taking the time to check it out. Red set this all up for our special night and I believed I ruined things.
Like I always do.
Sighing, I run my fingers through the tangled strands of my hair as I thought about all of this.
Abby was no longer around and I still feel like she is here.
In truth, I didn't fucking understand it.
In terms of Abby and I, what happened years ago has no relevance for me now. I put it aside and moved on with my life.
Among all the girls I've messed with, why does she affect me now?
It didn't make any sense and with that on my mind, I wasn't going to let a girl that's no longer in my life affect the one good thing that's happening to me.
Red makes me happy and I wasn't going to let anything ruin that. Even if I have to push aside feelings that shouldn't matter.
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