Get through Senior year. That's all I needed to do then I would finally be able to get out of Oklahoma.
Head down and keep quiet. That's all I had to do and I would survive. That was my strategy.
Until I caught the attention of the wrong person.
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Despite my best efforts, the car ride wasn't as enjoyable as I had hoped. It's the end of the weekend, and I'm on my way back to Durant. Occasionally, I would glance at Red while driving behind Blaze. She was leaning against the passenger, staring out the window.
The silence was deafening.
She hasn't said much to me since Jules decided to get in the car with Blaze, Ronan, and Demi. I knew my sister well and she was hoping that Red and I would talk it out but that was far from the case.
Red was making it hard for me.
The short and simple responses. Answering when she needs to. I knew she was still upset with me and I don't blame her.
She wants answers that I'm not ready to give. Acknowledging the truth.
I am conflicted about it all and I knew I had to get it off my chest. But I just couldn't fucking do it. I can't do it.
You should be happy we did this. You can brag to your friends.
Abby's sickening voice was the last thing I wanted to hear the moment I saw her in that store. Now, it was making sense to me why Chris was trying to push my buttons. Though he was a sad, unhappy motherfucker, he didn't mind causing shit.
Attempting to ruin what I have with the one girl I was trying to let in my life.
But I was already fucking up. Unintentionally.
It's just so fucking hard.
Following Blaze to the nearest gas station, 'Shell', I quickly checked the gas which was a little over a half tank before parking by one of the pumps. The sound of a seatbelt clicking gets my attention.
"I'm going to the bathroom." She tells me softly before getting out of the car before I have time to respond to her.
My eyes are naturally drawn to her as she walked into the 'Shell'. As she walked, I felt a sense of guilt rising in my chest.
Her body was in pain, no doubt as a result of our intimate interactions. There was a moment when I was rough with her. Lost in her.
Blaze gets out of the car along with Jules and Demi. I noticed as Demi opened the door that Ronan was leaning back in the backseat, sleeping with his hood over his head. Sighing, I get out of the car and walked to enter the gas station.
