Betrayal and Redemption (Completed)

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I left the mansion and decided to go back to our house where my mother is. I'd rather be with my mother than to be with someone who feed me lie and betrayed me. I was crying non-stop when I rode a taxi. Kahit sa loob ng taxi ay walang tigil ang pag-iyak ko.

Everytime I remembered how Riev fooled me, it breaks my heart more. Alam mo 'yong durog ka na nga. Mas nadurog ka pa hanggang sa maging pino ka na. Hanggang sa imposible nang mabuo ka pa dahil durog ka na eh. Durog na durog.

I cant be fully healed yet dahil sariwa pa ang sugat sa puso ko. Hindi ko alam kung kailan pero sisikapin kong ayusin ulit ang sarili ko. Susubukan kong kalimutan ang lahat. I will forget that I met him. I'll forget everything about him. Dahil iyon ang alam kong nararapat kong gawin.

The pain he inflicted in my heart is too much. Ang pagmamahal na nararamdaman ko sa kaniya ay natabunan na ng galit.

When I got home, Mama asked me why I came back home so early. She thought na magtatagal ako sa bahay ni Riev pero hindi niya inaasahan na uuwi ako agad sa kaniya kahit na wala pa akong isang linggo sa mansion ng lalakeng iyon.

Sinabi ko lang sa kaniya na may nangyaring hindi inaasahan kaya pinili ko nalang ulit ang bumalik sa mismong bahay namin. She didn't bother to ask me what's the problem because she saw how exhausted and devastated I am.

I cried and cried so hard that night. I doesn't have a good sleep because all I did is too cry my heart out. Sobrang hirap kalimutan nang mga nangyari lalo na't sariwa pa ang lahat. And it's a torture for me dahil palaging sumisikip ang dibdib ko sa tuwing naaalala ko ang mga nangyari.

I was so fucking stupid to believe him. Sobrang tanga ko. I gave him everything. My heart, my body and my soul. We started this stupidness because of his fucking threats to me! He threatened me that's why I agreed to his deal. I should've rendered my heart in the first place. I shouldn't let myself fall in his traps.

Iyon ba ang rason kung bakit naguguluhan siya sa nararamdaman niya sa 'kin? Dahil may fiance siya na mahal na mahal niya? He should've said it earlier. Sana ay hindi niya nalang ako pinaasa!

Pero iyon ang agenda nila ng fiance niya. Ang paasahin at saktan ako. Isa pa 'yang Rashia na 'yan sa gumugulo sa isip ko. At isa siya sa mga dahilan kung bakit nasasaktan ako ngayon ng sobra.

She said she's my cousin? But I completely forgot about her. I didn't even know that she existed in our lives. Or maybe because I forget... her? I don't have any memories of her during my childhood. Why is that? Is it because I'm too young that time? I think. I need to ask my mother about her.

Her dad is my father's brother.

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"Hey,"

My eyes went to the man who's standing in front of me. It's Kai.

I smiled at him. Pero alam kung hindi iyon umabot sa mga mata ko. And he noticed it dahil agad na rumehistro ang pag-aalala sa mga mata nito.

"Are you... okay?" He carefully asked.

Andito ako ngayon sa labas ng school namin. I was about to go home but I didn't expect Kai's presence here. Ang sabi niya ay gusto niya akong makita dahil miss niya na daw ako. How sweet of him.

"I'm... okay." I whispered, sounded so unsure. Am I really okay? No. I'm really not okay. The pain is still here. Sariwa pa ang lahat dahil kahapon lang ang mga iyon nangyari.

"You're not a good liar, Athaliana." He said with a serious face. I heard him deeply sighed. "Wala pa ba iyong susundo sa 'yo?" He asked.

He can't fetch. Not anymore.