Betrayal and Redemption (Completed)

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Napahawak ako sa ulo ko nang makaramdam nang kirot doon. Hangover.

Binuksan ko ang mga mata ko at agad na sumalubong sa'kin ang pamilyar na kwarto. This is not my room. My forehead creased trying to remember what happened last night after I get drunk.

I'm with Kat. I get drunk. I went to the dancefloor. I was dancing and I felt someone behind my back. He's dancing with me and he plant a kiss on my neck and... and I let him touch me down there. My eyes widened because of shocked.

What the hell? Did I just let some stranger touch my private part? Oh gosh. You're unbelievable, Athaliana!

Agad akong bumangon ngunit napahiga lang din ako ulit nang maramdaman ko na naman ang pag-sakit ng ulo ko. Damn hangover.

"You're awake." That voice. Dumapo ang mga mata ko sa pinanggalingan ng boses na iyon. It feels like my heart stopped from beating when I saw his tall figure standing one meter away from me. He's holding a glass of water while staring at me intently. Why is he here?

Bumaba ang tingin ko sa kamang hinihigaan ko. So he's the one who brought me here last night? Why?

Muling bumalik sa alaala ko ang rason kung bakit ako nagpunta sa club at nagpakalasing. Dito ko nakita sa kamang 'to si Riev na may pinapaligayang ibang babae.

"Here drink this. It will help you lessen your hangover." Rinig kong sabi niya. In my peripheral vision, I saw him put something on the bed side table.

"Why did you bring me here?" Mahinang tanong ko rito. My eyes are settled on one direction. I didn't bother giving him a single glance.

"Do you still hate me?" He asked.

"What would you expect me to do, Riev? Do you expect me to forgive you?" I sarcastically said. Ngunit napatawa ako nang pagak nang may mapagtanto. Hindi nga pala kami. Wala pala akong karapatan mag-selos at magalit dahil walang kami. I'm just his bedwarmer. Gosh, Athaliana, you're so assuming.

"Ayy, wala pala akong karapatan magalit at magselos dahil wala naman palang tayo. You don't even like me. I'm just one of your whores." Mapait kong saad.

Hinawi ko ang kumot na tumatakip sa kalahating bahagi ng katawan ko. Kahit may kirot pa rin akong nararamdaman sa ulo ko ay pinilit ko pa rin ang bumangon. I need to leave.

"Where are you going?" He darkly said while watching me stood up and made my way to the door. "Athaliana," He called me again when he didn't heard any response from me.

"What?" Tamad akong pumihit paharap sa kaniya. I met his dark gaze but I didn't let myself be affected to it.

"You haven't drink the pill that I gave you." He said. I rolled my eyes bago naglakad pabalik sa bed side table niya. I took the pill and put it inside my mouth. Pagkatapos ay ininom ko ang isang basong tubig.

"Happy?" Sarkastikong tanong ko sa kaniya. Nilagpasan ko siya at tinungo na ang direksyon ng pintuan. I don't want to stay in this room with him. Especially that I caught him f•cking someone. And their moans of pleasure echoed in the four corners of this room. His room.

"Athaliana,"

Nakaramdam na ako nang inis nang banggitin niya na naman ang pangalan ko.

"Do you remember what you told me last night?"

Natigilan ako sa pagpihit ng seradura nang marinig nag kaniyang tanong. Bahagyang kumunot ang noo ko. What? Anong sinabi ko sa kaniya kagabi? Ba't hindi ko maalala?

"You told me that you love me," He continued.

I gasped. Did I just confessed that I love him? Mariin akong napapikit. Lihim na kinakastigo ang aking sarili. I told him that I love him because I was so drunk last night. Pero kung hindi ako lasing ay hindi na ako magtatangka pang sabihin iyon sa kaniya.

"Just forget it." That's all what I've said when I pull myself together. I opened the door and leave. I really need to leave this place because it suffocates me.

Malapit na ako sa hagdan nang may biglang humila sa 'kin at sinandal ako sa isang matigas na pader. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko nang makitang si Riev ang gumawa no'n. He was towering me with his height.

"R-Riev, what are you doing? Let me go!" I tried to freed myself from him but he didn't let me. He trapped me between his arms. Halos idikit niya na ang matigas niyang dibdib sa dibdib ko.

"You're not leaving," He darkly said while crouching his head. I looked away when I can't stand his deep stares. Ramdam ko ang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko habang magkalapit kami. Can he heard it too?

"Can you just... let go of me Riev?" I uttered. Ang mga mata ko ay nanatiling nakatuon sa isang direksyon. "I will keep on hurting if you keep me with you. Dahil kapag kasama kita patuloy lang akong mahuhulog sa 'yo. Patuloy lang akong aasa sa wala. I let you have my virginity. Sana ay sapat na iyon para pakawalan mo 'ko. You can have every girls in this world if you want. And some of them are willing to be f•cked by you. You don't need me anymore to fulfill your needs. Sana pakawalan mo na ako at hayaan na magpatuloy sa buhay nang... nang wala ka." A tear escaped from my eyes when I uttered the last words. Napayuko ako upang itago ang aking mukha.

"I... I can't." He whispered. He even stuttered which is the first time.

"Why? D-Do you want to torture me even more?" I painfully asked.

"Baby, looked at me please..." He plead.

I frozed in my spot when I heard him saying please. What the hell is happening to him? Did he really just say please to me? That was the first!

I looked up to him and I gasped in shock when I saw lots of emotions in his tantalizing blue eyes. Kung dati ay hindi ko nababasa ang mga emosyon na minsan ko lang makita sa mga mata ngayon ay siguradong-sigurado ako sa mga emosyong nababasa ko.

Anger. Guilt. Confusion. Desire. Love. Regret.

Love?

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