WARNING: MATURE CONTENT
Joshia
Mausok at maingay ang paligid. Halos hindi mo na makikilala ang mga taong nandito dahil sa dami nila. Nakakasakit rin sa mata ang ilaw na sari-sari ang kulay at patuloy pa sa paggalaw. Things are getting wild, kahit ang mga tugtugin.
"Shot pa?" Tanong ng katrabaho kong si Maui at inabutan ako ng isang bote ng beer.
Tahimik kong tinungga ang beer habang nakatitig sa kawalan. Ilang oras na akong nandito pero hindi pa rin nabubura ng alak at kalasingan ang galit na nararamdaman ko. I want to punch someone.
I want to let my anger out but to whom? Hindi naman pwedeng basta na lang akong manapak ng costumer dito at maghanap ng away dahil lang sa bad trip ako. That will for sure make me lose my job.
And I can't let that happen. I only have this job to save me from starving and to finish my school. I can't do reckless stuffs, not until I graduated and have a decent job and mountains of money to waste.
"Ano ba kasing problema? Magkwento ka! Makikinig ako." Pamimilit ni Maui.
I shook my head. I don't like sharing my problems to anyone. It's personal at sa tingin ko rin naman ay wala syang magagawa para mabago ang nangyari na. Mas gugustuhin kong sarilinin na lang ang ganong bagay.
Beside, that's not me at all. I never depended on someone. Kaya ko ang sarili ko. I just need to forget my problems to keep on moving. And also to calm my fist down before it punches someone's face.
"Hay, bahala ka nga dyan." Bumuntong hininga si Maui at lumipat sa kabilang counter para si Jak naman ang guluhin.
I closed my eyes and lean my back on the counter top while holding the beer. I watched how the blinding lights hit every corner of the bar. The music became loud and hype the people up, everyone's enjoying.
I finish the beer and put the bottle on the counter. I stood up and squeezed myself between the ocean of dancing wild people. I want to go to the comfort room. I need to wash my face and get sober up before going home.
May pasok pa ako bukas. May quiz rin kami sa first period kaya kailangan kong magreview. Yun talaga ang plano ko kanina pa kung hindi lang dumating ang nakakairitang balita na yun.
I sighed after making it to the comfort room. Pinagpawisan ako sa pakikipag siksikan sa mga hyper na tao. Marami na rin ang gumagawa ng kamunduhan sa bawat sulok ng bar ngunit walang pumapansin sa kanila.
I mean, this is a fucking bar. Of course dirty things happens here. Magulat ka kung may makita kang nagro-rosaryo sa gilid.
I went inside the comfort room and turn on the faucet. Hinugasan ko ang muka ng malamig na tubig. Tumingin ako sa salamin at nakita ang sariling repleksyon. Pero parang ibang tao ang nasa harap ko ngayon.
Lifeless black eyes. Emotionless face and messed up clothes. I look cold. My black hoodie were tainted with beer and my grey sweatpants is already dusty. Plus my foggy eye glasses. I look like shit right now to be honest.
I sighed and washed my face again. I slapped my face two times to wake my self up and stretched my body. I need to get sober dahil magmamadaling araw na. Ayokong maaksidente rin sa pagmamaneho pauwi sa condo ko.
Lumabas ako ng banyo at nakipag siksikan ulit sa mga tao. I just need to get some cold drink and go home. Day off ko rin naman kaya hindi ko na kailangang intayin pa ang pagsasara ng bar mamayang 1 AM.
I only worked here at weekdays, weekends ang day off ko. You're probably wondering why. It's just that I can manage my time every weekdays than my weekends. Beside, weekends are my me time.
