The Blue Eyed Gilbert

Chapter 49

Mel's POV
I wake up groaning. Crying yourself to sleep seriously gives you a headache the next morning. I get my medication that the nurses got back from Kol. I take one of each then put them in the safe behind the picture. I take the picture down and sit back on my bed looking at the picture smiling. I remember the day we had it taken. I'm in the middle of the group smiling, Kol on my left kissing my cheek, Rebekah next to him smiling at the camera, then Elijah was on my right smiling holding my hand with Nik next to him smiling (because I begged him to). I miss being home but I can never get out of here. I have my re-evaluation today which is in about 10 or so minutes. I breathe out and a tear rolls down my cheek and drops onto the picture. I turn over the picture and see a little compartment. I open it and laugh a little. It has a note in. I take it and open it.
'Dear Melanie, if you have found this it means you have finally decided to check the back of the picture. I may not be around when you have read this but I have to say something. I love you. I have loved you since the moment I set my eyes upon you. If I have ever done anything wrong in the past, please forgive me. I can't imagine seeing you with another man. I love you Melanie. Lots of love. Love From Kol.'
KOL LOVES ME?! No. No. No. No. He can't! He can't love me! I hear a knock on the door and a nurse enters.
"Yes?" I ask.
"It's time." They are the words that I have been ready for. I breathe out and nod standing up. I follow the nurse out the room and to the... I don't know what rooms it's called. I sit on the chair in front of a table. A man in a suit comes in and sits opposite me. He puts his briefcase in front of him and unlocks it. He pulls out papers and places the on the desk, locking his briefcase and moving it. He places a sketching in front of me and asks,
"What do you see?" It was a sketch of a family. They were happy. They had eachother to rely on.
"I see a family. They're happy. They feel like they will be together forever." I reply.
"What do you feel?" He asks.
"Jealous yet scared." I reply.
"Why do you feel them?"
"Because I haven't got that with my family. My parents are dead. My sister hates me and my brother... He obviously don't like me." I reply remembering when Jeremy didn't give me a hug when he saw me and when Elena confessed she hated me.
"Why do you feel scared?" He asks.
"I feel scared. Not for me but for them especially the children. They are going to lose their parents just like I did. They are going to realise the world hates them and then they become mental. They will end up just like me. They will have siblings who hate each other. They will make sure that no matter what, they will protect each other even if one hates another." I ramble on. He nods and moves the picture away. He puts another sketch in front of me. It's of a girl.... She's crying. She's sad.
"What do you see?"
"I see me. That lonely girl that cries when no one is around. The one that stays strong around everyone." I reply honestly.
"What do you feel?"
"What do I feel? I feel twisted. Like I'm going to snap any minute. I feel like I could just murder anyone who has hurt this girl." He looks taken back at my response. He nods and puts the pictures away.
"Thank you Melanie. However, I don't think you are ready to be out of here quite yet. I'll see you in a month." I nod and he walks out. I'm in here for another month. I told Kol I belonged here. A nurse comes in and takes me to my room.
"You're visitors are here again."
"Tell them I don't want to see them."
"Too late." I hear Elijah says. I groan and turn to face the wall lying on my bed.
"I don't want to see or talk to any of you especially Kol." I say.
"Why not?" Rebekah asks but I stay quiet.
"You aren't being serious?" Nik says. I still stay quiet. I hear a slight growl and I yelp when I feel someone grip my wrists and holds them tightly. I look at the person and see Kol. His grip hurting excruciatingly.
"Kol. You're hurting me." I whimper.
"I don't care. Show respect."
"I thought you loved me. I found your note." I whimper again.
"You found it?" He asks astonished but still gripping my wrists tightly.
"Yes. Now let go." I whisper.
"I don't love you anymore. I wrote that about 6 months ago. My feelings for you are long gone." I look at him tears welling up in my eyes.
"I hate you! Get out! Get out! Get out!" I sob. But I suddenly stop, I stare straight ahead ignoring things around me.
"Melanie? Love? You there?" I hear Elijah say.
"I'm fine. I am always fine. Stay strong for others. Crying equals weakness. Can't have weakness." I say in a trance.
"What's wrong with her?" Nik says.
"I don't know. Melanie? Answer me." Rebekah says. I look at her expressionless.
"It's like her whole personality is gone. Her emotions." She says looking in my eyes.
"If I don't want to get hurt, you don't feel. To not feel, you don't be yourself. If you be yourself, you have to feel. To feel you have to hurt. I won't allow myself to do that." I reply. Kol gets something out of his pocket and I see a needle. I try backing up but his grip is still on me. He jabs it into my neck full force and I black out, but before I do I hear the words of Rebekah,
"We will help you become yourself again." And I slip into pitch black.