Belated Fate (Elizabeth Olsen x Fem!Reader)

Chapter 39. Too weak to resist

Y/n's POV:

Ever since my eyes fell on the screen of Elizabeth's phone with this open chat, I'm having trouble getting rid of an obsessive feeling that my girlfriend is either not telling me something or is too oblivious to see the full picture of the relationship with her "just new friend", even thought I'm not sure that I've seen enough myself. But given her past and my deep insecurities along with certain issues, it's extremely hard for me to set myself up for this being just a second option.

Lying on the couch next to her, I couldn't focus on the movie even for a minute, only hearing our friends' comments in the distance, unable to fully turn my attention to them and enjoy our time in peace. All I could think about was the bitter possibility that I was being fooled or just being played with, and at any moment I could be replaced by someone more interesting, promising, talented, funny and so on.

I try not to let this fear destroy my ability to think straight and my confidence in Elizabeth, because it can easily lead to the collapse of our relationship, but it's extremely difficult to do when I see how my loved one doesn't mind someone getting too close with her, not noticing their obvious interest in her and then she proceeds to call them just a friend.

I'm not sure in anything right now, because on the one hand, she doesn't hide the fact that she talks to him, and on the other hand, she didn't really worry about her already ex-boyfriend when she was just friends with me, because at first it's often just a harmless friendship that can develop into something more due to certain circumstances.

Just the thought that history is so quickly repeating itself plants an overwhelming feeling of helplessness in me, because I don't even know if I have the right to ask something from her. I don't want to be the person who goes crazy because my partner is friends with other people and I'm not the only one she needs.

I'm desperate to make this relationship healthy and I'm ready to make certain sacrifices, but I have no idea if I should just stifle this burdening feeling in me so as not to condemn Elizabeth to a choice or I have to be open with her even when it's one of the hardest things for me to do, especially not knowing for sure if she'll tell me the truth.

The whole movie marathon passed almost imperceptibly for me, although I occasionally made witty comments so as not to show that mentally I was in a completely different place, and after a few hours everyone decided that it was already time to go home.

"Thank heavens you know I'm a terrible cook and decided to bring in a bunch of food," Scarlett smiles at Chris and he just lets out a small chuckle in response, scratching the back of his head.

"Actually it was Elsa's idea, but we're gonna ignore it," he smirks, earning a slap on the shoulder from his wife before they proceed to put their shoes on while Scar and Colin dump empty food bags and containers in the trash.

"Are you two okay? Why is Y/n so quiet all of sudden?" Scarlett comes over to us a couple of minutes later, leaving the rest for Colin to finish, and puts one arm on Elizabeth's shoulder and the other on mine as we stand in awkward silence, keeping a little distance.

"I'm just really tired and I wanna sleep already," the dumbest lie comes from my lips and I put a smile on them in the hope that she will have no more questions, but she narrows her eyes suspiciously before turning her head to Elizabeth.

"Does she always go to bed at 9 pm?" The woman wonders without removing this disbelieving expression from her face and my girlfriend just gives me an unreadable second-lasting look before nodding her head along with a small "mhm" coming from her closed mouth.

"Fine, I don't know what's going on between ya, but you better make up if you don't wanna me to kidnap and lock you two in the basement," she is as perceptive as usual when it comes to her best friend and with these words she pinches each of us in the ribs, couple of seconds later heading towards Chris and Elsa, who are already about to leave while me an El just share another tense look.