The Game

Chapter 34- I love you

Tori  

I ran home that day. Without letting him explain further, I just ran. I couldn't look him in the eyes. All that was playing in my head was him and Serena with a baby. Them in the bed before she got pregnant. How they've been close and intimate with one another. He has been calling and texting non-stop since I left that day. I just can't talk to him right now. I don't know what to do. This is such a big mess. But the big question is where this leaves us? He is going to be a dad.

I just can't wrap my head around this. It doesn't seem real. There's something shady over this whole situation.

What will Serena do? This ruins her whole life. And if she really is pregnant, then I feel really bad for the kid. Having someone like her as a mom? This whole thing means that K.C and Serena have to spend a lot of time together, and he will be busy. He probably won't have time for me then and I can't handle him with a baby. Specially not with Serena's baby.

I need to talk to him. I dial his number on my phone and he picks up immediately.

"Tori?" He says with a soft and expectant voice. Like he's been waiting for me to call. "Hi." I say trying to sound normal and casual, but it comes out sad. "Hi." He says with the same tone. Then there's silence. I can hear him breathe heavily. He's waiting for me to say something, but the words won't come out.

"How are you?" He asks after my silence. How am I? How do you think I am? My boyfriend is expecting a baby with his ex that I hate with all of my guts. An ex that I live with and have to look at every single day.

"Fine."  

Silence again..

"We need to talk." I say after gathering courage to speak again. "Yeah, I know." He says sounding very sad. "Come at my place, no ones home." He says and hangs up after saying bye.

Is this it? Are we going to break up now?

............

"Come in." He moves to the side so I can get inside the house. There's an awkward tension between us. None of us want to say anything.

"You want a soda?" He asks as we sit in the living room. "Yes, please." This will buy me some time to think of what to say to him. He gets up and disappears in the kitchen, but he's back way sooner than I expected. "Here you go." He says and hands me the can. He just looks at me as I open it and take a sip. I gulp hard and try to act normal. I look everywhere but his eyes.

"So.. what did you want to talk about?" he asks me. I take another sip to win me some time. "I just want to know what your plans are.. about the whole baby situation." It feels so weird to have this conversation with him. He is so young. Even though K.C is mature and a good guy, he is not ready for this kind of responsibility.

"I don't know, Tori.." he looks down and run his hands through his hair. "I don't know, this whole situation is messed up. I don't know anything anymore." He shakes his head and lets out a long and sharp sigh. 

"I don't want this, I haven't been able to sleep, Tori. I am constantly thinking about it. This is going to ruin everything I've worked for." He seems so sad and I just want to hug him and tell him everything is going to be alright, but I know they're not. I just look down and try to say something but I can't.

"I really don't want this baby, I feel like it's going to ruin everything. My school, parents, friends...." He looks up and meet my eyes. "You." My hearts starts beating faster by what he just said. I feel the same way. Me and him won't last because of the baby. I look at him and his eyes are getting teary, I have never seen him so upset. I feel my heart breaking, I move closer to him and he just looks down. I rest my head on his shoulder while holding his arm.