The Game

Chapter 23- missing Mr. West

Tori

I feel like I can't breath. What just happened in there? Why did he ask me that? God, I'm so stupid. Why do I feel so bad right now. Is it because it's wrong or the fact that he didn't say it back. Okay, I'll admit it. I am really hurt that he didn't kiss me. Why is he playing with me like that. Making me believe that he's going to kiss me, making me admit my feelings and then.. nothing. I'm so naive. I feel so pathetic. He's Serena's ex of course it would never work. He's totally different from me.

I need to get my priorities straight. I need to focus on school. I know now that nothing good will come out of K.C and I's friendship.

I walk home from the school. It's dark and cold, I should've worn a thicker jacket. I'm not going to talk to him ever again. I need to talk to someone, so I call Omar and head over to his place instead, it's closer and then he can drive me home afterwards.

"What's up?" He says in the other end of the phone.

"Are you home?" I ask try to act normal and not sound sad.

"Yes, what's wrong?" He says concerned.

"Nothing, I'm fine, can I come over?"

"Of course, hon." he says with a tender voice

"Good, cause I'm already in your driveway." I say and run the rest of the way till I stand in front of his door, without even knocking he opens it.

"Tell me what's wrong." he says without even saying hi or anything.

"How did you know something was wrong?"

"Girl, I have a sense for that kind of things, I think that helping people is my call in life." he says looking up, making everything dramatic.

"Oh well, what's wrong?" he says again this time looking at me and cutting of the humor. I inhale sharply and then exhale before telling him.

"I told K.C that I like him."

Omar stops with whatever he's doing, turns slowly around, with mouth open and wide open eyes while holding his hands in front of him. He slowly walks over to me.

"You did what?" he says shocked but quiet. I feel guilty for having these feelings.

"I know. He made me. He's such a devil, he said I liked him and then made me confirm it." I say as I throw my things on the ground and jump on the bed facing downwards, shoving my face in Omar's pillow.

"Tori, why didn't you tell me you liked him, even though I had my theories, but still! I'm your friend! You tell each other stuff like this!" he says and sits beside me on his bed.

"I know, I was ashamed. I had these impure thoughts, and I felt disgusting." I mumble still facing down.

"It's okay Tori, we are all disgusting sometimes. But you can't help who you like, even though it totally sucks that it's him, but still." he says. He's not making it better.

"What did K.C say after you said you like him?" Omar asks.

"Nothing, absolutely nothing. He just stared at me, then I left." I say and then tell him the whole story, how I was mad at him and then how I ignored him in school and then the thing in the library. All of it, with every single detail.

"Wow.." Omar says after I finish the story. He is astonished, he gently shakes his head as he is trying to process all the things I just told him.
"Do you think he likes you too?" He asks after a while.

"I have no idea, I don't think he does. He would've said it back if he did."I say and look down disappointed. Of course he can never like someone like me, I mean look at his ex girlfriend, we are opposites! I'm everything she isn't and he likes girls like that. He's the most popular guy in school, why the hell would he even go after an ordinary girl like me, after having been with someone like Serena. He didn't take the dream as serious as I did, and he was acting all cool, because he knows that nothing will happen with us.