Noah's pov
"I love you Noah." What. I didn't know what to say. It wasn't that I didn't love him it's just...
"You don't have to say it back, I just want you to know how I feel." Jack pulled me out of my thoughts.
"I love you too!" I replied looking into his eyes. I felt bad. I did love Jack but I couldn't stop thinking about him. Jack wasn't Finn. I felt Jacks lips press against mine and I kissed back. It was passionate, full of love. I felt us moving back and I was soon on the couch. Jack pulled away slightly out of breath. He looked me up and down as he bit his lip. I knew what he wanted, but I wasn't ready. We had been together for a while but I just couldn't do it. It felt wrong.
"I'm sorry..." I whispered looking away. I heard a small sigh, he was disappointed.
"It's okay." He softly said pulling away and sitting next to me. He gave me a small kiss on the cheek and we were left in silence. After what felt like forever Jack finally stood up telling me he was going for a shower and all I could do was feel bad. He loved me and all I could do was let him down.
That night we went to bed practically in silence. I knew he wasn't mad but I knew he was starting to get mad but I just couldn't. The next morning I woke up with my head on his chest. I looked up at him and he was on his phone unaware I was awake so I just sat and watched. He was handsome I had to admit. He finally noticed and a small smile appeared on his face,
"Hey No." I leant up and place a soft kiss on his lips not saying anything.
"You ready for Caleb's party?" He whispered back before kissing me again before I could reply. It was his party tonight, shit. I would see Finn tonight. Jack pulled away realizing I had stopped kissing back.
"You're thinking about him, aren't you?" I could see the slight sadness in his voice and I hated doing this to him. I just nodded not wanting to admit it.
"If he says anything and I mean anything tell me." He said getting protective. I smiled up at him, I loved how much he cared about me.
"Of course I will."
--Time skip--
Was I too formal, too casual? I couldn't tell. Jack appeared in the mirror behind me, his arms wrapped around me.
"You look fucking fantastic." He whispered in my ear kissing down my neck slightly before pulling away. (Outfit is the one above!). Hearing that made me feel better about my outfit. Jack was wearing a similar thing, a white button up with black skinny jeans. He looked good.
Throughout the car ride I was full of anxiety. What if Caleb didn't like his gift. What if we're under dressed. What if-
"Babe please stop stressing, we're gonna have a great night, I promise." Suddenly everything felt better. That was until I looked out the car window and realized we had arrived. The music was already really loud and you could hear everyone from outside.
Jack and I were holding hands as we walked up the steps towards Caleb's front door. As we were about to knock the door swung open and Caleb was standing there with his arms open.
"Hey guys, glad you could make it!" He had a massive smile across his face. I smiled holding my arms out like a child showing him his present. Caleb laughed and took it off me thanking us both and invited us in.
His house was full of people, a lot of people. Caleb handed us some beer that was by the door, I guess to greet guests and off he went towards some more people. Jack and I laughed as we took a swig of our drinks. I looked around looking for him but instead made eye contact with my boyfriend.
"Lets dance." I whispered grabbing Jack's hand heading towards the crowd of people already dancing. After a few songs I had finally finished my beer.
"You wait right here." I whispered seductively in Jack's ear winking before heading to the kitchen to get another.
Everything stopped. My eyes were fixed on him. He was stood across the kitchen with a group of people I'd never seen before. He saw me too and everything just stopped. I snapped back into reality and walked over towards the beverages. I soon felt someone appear next to me.
"You look good." Finn whispered also grabbing a beer. I could feel his eyes on me, all over me. I didn't want to look at him, it felt like giving in but I had to. His hair was short, he had a button up shirt on with the top 3 buttons undone with suit pants on. He looked amazing. I saw a smirk appear on his face, I was practically drooling.
"Jack looks nice." Finn added looking over at my boyfriend. I could hear the ignorance through his voice and I could smell the alcohol reeking off of him.
"Uh-uh." I replied reaching for my drink only to be stopped,
"Yet, I look better." I looked up at him rolling my eyes letting out a 'Pfft.' He had to be joking. He placed his hand on my shirt and started playing with the top button eventually popping it open.
"Why's he even here, we both know who you really wa-" I cut him off now annoyed at the fact he wasn't wrong..
"Who's that then Finn. You? Why would I want a cheat." I snapped before chugging my beer and returning to my boyfriend. Jack was looking, watching.
"Hi baby." I mumbled feeling the alcohol already getting to me.
"What was-" I shushed him by forcing my lips onto his before pulling away and dancing again but this time I was grinding on him and as I looked over to the direction of the kitchen I saw Finn staring. He was mad which only caused me to continue. Jack placed his hands on my hips and grinded in time with me.
"Noah.." He moaned into my ear only causing me to keep going. I took the drink out of his free hand chugging the remaining down.
"Maybe you should slow down No..." He mumbled but shut up as I turned and kissed him. I kissed down his cheek onto his neck the up to his ear,
"Come with me." I pulled his away from the crowd and pushed him onto the free sofa that was under the stairs and climbed on top of him. We were heavily making out at this point and I could feel him getting hard.
"Noah..." I kept going.
"NOAH." He pushed me away slightly. I knew I shouldn't but I couldn't help but turn to see if Finn was looking but that's when I felt Jack tense.
"What the fuck." I heard him mumble causing me to turn to him with a confused expression.
"You like me Noah?" He asked causing me to nod.
"But you really love, Finn." (ignore me casually quoting Cassie - just rewatched skins) At this point he had fully pushed me off of him. I opened my mouth to speak but I really couldn't argue with him because I did, I was in love with Finn.
A//N: I'm sorry this chapter kinda dragged but yhhh...
How was this??
Next chapters going to be Jack's point of view ;)
Have you guys watched Skins (UK)??
I love it, Generation 2 is probably my favourite but gen 1 will always be elite.
Comment any suggestions,
VOLUME 2 SOON!!
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Zoe :)
