Finn's pov
I'd be lying if I said I was over him. I miss him. I miss him so fucking much. I'm miserable without him and I know what you're thinking "But what about Millie?" Millie and I broke up 5 months ago, we barely even made it a month into our relationship, but why? I couldn't even look at her, at myself; all I could see was that look on Noah's face when he caught us. Every time I was alone with her this feeling would appear in my stomach, it felt like I was cheating on Noah over and over. Millie saw I was hurting and she's the one who suggested that we just go back to being friends but our managements decided we couldn't tell the public just yet, and 4 months later we're still 'together' in the eyes of the media. Millie and I remained good friends though, I guess we had to; we lost all our other friends. Most importantly, I lost Noah, my Noah.
It's been a 6 months and a day doesn't go by without me wondering how he's doing. I wonder if he's dating again? Does he miss me too? I regret everything that happened. I don't even know how it happened. I loved, no, I love Noah. I can't even comprehend what was going through my head to make me do that to Noah but it happened and I cannot take it back no matter how hard I try.
I've tried getting in contact with Noah but it's impossible. He's blocked my number, all my socials, I've even tried messaged our...well his friends now but it's no use. Gaten practically hates me, at first he was somewhat sympathetic with me but after a few weeks he stopped talking to me completely but I deserve it. Sadie and I talk like once every other month but it's never anything meaningful, just a quick 'how are you' and then she's gone, I think not having Sadie has effected Millie more though. They were best friends, Sadie tried to understand Millie, but what we did was terrible and I understand why they left. Caleb and I hang out from time to time but I see the way he looks at me - that is when he actually does, at the beginning he could barely even look at me but it's gotten better, I'm grateful he somewhat stayed but it's still not the same, nothing is the same I lost all my best friends but the most important person I lost was Noah, my boyfriend, the guy I promised forever with. I'd do anything to go back. I can't stand thinking about that night, I hate myself for hurting Noah, I was meant to protect him but instead I caused more pain than anyone else could've. I'm an idiot.
I barely used social media anymore, my team practically ran my twitter, the only app I did use was Instagram. Tears began to fill my eyes as I stared blankly at the picture on my feed. Was that...Noah? Why was he on Jack's Instagram, I didn't even know they knew each other. It looked like a date, was it a date?? He really has moved on but that's what I deserve, I cheated, I ruined the best thing that ever happened to me and for what?
I miss him.
A/N: So I thought I'd do a chapter in Finn's pov, how is this?
I'm sorry for the short chapter, I guess this is a filler? Thought maybe we needed some kind of insight into what/how Finn was feeling.
Thank you all for the support on this story!! <3
Next chapter soon!!
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Zoe :))
