Noah's pov
The drive to Chole's apartment was quiet. Chloe didn't want to push me to talk, whereas I just couldn't admit to my twin what I had done. As we reached the apartment block we just sat in the car, neither of us moving. Finally, Chloe broke the silence,
"You slept with him?" Chloe asked looking over at me. I followed and we made eye contact. She didn't look mad or disgusted...just worried. I couldn't get myself to speak, all I could do was give her a small sad nod.
"And Jack?" Chloe continued to question.
"He doesn't know." I whispered finally looking away giving her the confirmation she needed. I cheated.
"What- How...why?" She was puzzled, I don't blame her. I was confused too. I loved Jack, I really did, he was great, perfect even yet I still went to Finn.
"I- don't know..." I said quietly as my voice broke and tears filled my eyes. She gave me a sympathetic look.
"You still love him," She sighed. I connected our eyes once again and nodded letting the tears fall. I love Finn and I couldn't stop. Before I could say anything else my phone began buzzing. It was Jack, probably wondering where I had gotten to - again.
"You need to talk to him No." Chloe stated as I tapped decline. I nodded knowing that was the reality of this situation. Jack deserved the truth but how.
"Let's get you cleaned up and then we'll go?" Chloe rhetorically asked unbuckling her seatbelt, I followed closely behind.
---Small time skip---
"It'll be okay..." Chloe tried to persuade me as we reached Jack's apartment,
"Will it?" I asked monotoned with a straight face.
"I'll be here waiting if you need me, okay?" She reassured giving me a soft smile as I finally opened the car door.
As I reached his apartment my stomach filled with anxiety. I couldn't do this. I wanted to turn and just walk back out but I knew I had to do this, for Jack's sake. I lightly knocked on the door and stared down at the floor as I heard it creak open.
"Noah!!" Jack exclaimed as I was pulled into a deep hug. I lightly place my hands around him my chest tightening.
"I've been so worried..." He whispered in my ear as he began pulling away. He was waiting for me to say something, his eyes were staring right into mine.
"What's wrong?" His face softened as he realized I wasn't okay. But before I could say anything something caught his eye and he looked down. My neck - the stupid hickey.
"Noah...don't tell me that's what I think it is?" He stepped back taking his hands off of my waist. I opened my mouth to deny it but I just couldn't.
"No..." He whispered, "No, no, no!"
He turned away this time and all I could do was reach out for him. He turned his head as I place my hand on his shoulder.
"Was it him?" He spat.
"Jack please let me explain." I panicked. My response only caused his eyes to tear up. He looked like he was about to explode in anger,
"Go on then." He said calmly to my surprise. I didn't even know how to explain, whatever I was about to say would only hurt him further but he needed an explanation, he deserved one.
"I...I was drunk-" He rolled his eyes letting out a 'pfft.'
"And I know that's not an excuse, but I had so much to drink and I wasn't thinking straight...I was hurt...about us and he was just there and I don't even know how it happened, honestly I don't fucking understand how I let this happen but you was right last night Jack...I love him, and I'm so fucking sorry, I've tried so much, because I do love you too, I mean that I do but..."
"You're in love with him." He whispered looking down refusing to meet my gaze.
"I'm so-" He cut me off yet again,
"I think you should leave."
"Jack please I-"
"I need you to leave No." He looked up finally meeting my eyes, he was crying and I knew he needed space but I just couldn't get myself to move.
"Noah leave!" He repeated finally raising his voice causing me to step back and head towards the door. I turned before I walked out,
"I really am sorry Jack." I whispered before closing the door behind me and finally, my tears flooded down my face and as on queue my phone buzzed.
A text, from Finn.
'I may have unblocked my number while you was asleep - don't be mad, but I think we should talk, I really need to see you.'
I did the one thing I probably shouldn't have done and clicked send.
'I'll be over in 10.'
A/N: Sooo how was this?
Sorry I haven't updated all week - truthfully it's been a hard week mentally but we're holding on.
Any suggestions for next chapter?
Hmm, coke or pepsi?
Thank you all for your support - especially on this story <3
I'll try update soonnn
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Zoe :)
