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Chapter 44

Alex POV

I was at home, in Kolov. The sun was shining and there was no snow, which was quite rare. It was ,certainly , an abnormal summer day, only the breeze was relieving the heat. I was on the street, in front of the door of my house and apparently everything was quiet. My neighbors were sitting on their terrace, the houses were normal, as I remembered,the street was perfectly clean... but I seemed invisible. I looked at my hands and they were translucent, as if I didn't belong here. I was just a visitor or maybe a spirit, I'm not sure.

Suddenly the door opened and no one was behind it . That was weird.

I entered in what was my real home, a large corridor was the first thing that jumped into my sight. On the wall there was a photograph of my family, but surprisingly I wasn't there. In the original photograph I was on my father's lap and as far as I know, it was destroyed in the bombings, but here, my existence was erased. It was like an alternative world.
I was contemplating the painting during the a few minutes but I was interrupted by the noise of the steps on the stairs ,that gave access to the rooms at the top. I looked at the stairs and see my brother Alan coming down in a clumsy and fast way, soon after comes Isaac and they both go out into the street. I was in shock for a few seconds. Alan... he didn't deserve to have died, he was too young, full of joy...

My thoughts were again interrupted, this time not by my brothers but by my father who crossed the corridor,he was going from the living room to the kitchen. I followed him and I see him hugging my mother.

I wish I could freeze time and stay here forever. Even if i was like a mere spectator.

The affection between my parents was evident, they loved each other very much. I just wish I had more time with them to know their love story. I got closer and when I was about to touch my mother's hand everything turned black.

The following moments were blurs of memories, explosions, the escape, the basement, the bodies, the blood...

I woke up,I was shaking and i had tears in the eyes. I'm in Kettershield, not in Kolov. This is not my home, it's a military base. I take deep breaths several times. It was just a nightmare and I really should do some kind of therapy.

I get out of bed and see that the sheets are all wet with sweat. Fuck. Anyway, I wasn't going back to sleep again.

I take a shower, get dressed and I went for a dawn walk. When I passed through the hallway I looked at the watch that marked half past four in the morning. What have I been doing with my life? I could be sleeping but no, that damn nightmare had to haunt me.

I walked around the perimeter of the base and I didn't even realize the how much time i spent. When I entered the cafeteria some soldiers were already at the tables, which indicated that it was after five in the morning.

Today was going to be a long day since individual training was going to start. Who will be my personal trainer?

I sat at the usual table and a few minutes later my partners arrived.

⁃ Good morning, girls.

⁃ Good morning.

⁃ Good morning to whom? It's a crime to wake up so early.

⁃ Are you going to complain every day, Caitlyn?

⁃ I'll complain as many times as necessary. I don't deserve to wake up at this time - She said in a tantrum tone. I look at Anya and without making a sound, just moving my lips, I ask her how she can bear it and she responds by saying that it's not as bad as it seems - I'm seeing you guys.

⁃ Eat or you'll be late and on top of that today you can't even be late.

⁃ I know. By the way,I've already discovered a payment method.

⁃ Payment for what?

⁃ This is between me and Alex - She blinks her eye and Anya looked at me suspiciously.

⁃ I have to go, i still need to go my room. See you later, girls.

⁃ You are running away, Alex.