Spoken Word Poetry

What if

There's still a lot of what if's in my head
Some of them I tried to forget
But they're still stuck in there
Some of them being

What if we didn't fought that night?
We're still together am I right? 
What if I was mentally stable?
Seeing you freely would be possible

At the back of my mind you're still here
Here beside me, holding my hand
There are times that I wish you were here
I know it doesn't work like that, but

What if we didn't have to hide?
I guess everything would be alright
What if we tried to be strong?
I mean it isn't wrong, right?

Time flies so fast
But I'm still here, stuck in the past
I know, I have to move on
And start doing things all alone

I guess the biggest what if is
What if I tell you that I still love you?
Would you tell me that you love me too?
I guess I'll never know

Time will heal my heart
But for now I'll express it through art
Things ended for a reason
I'll wait for the explanation

Note: having a hard time posting my works, i wish i have enough time to edit my former poems to make it more worthy.