Heaven and Hell Start With the Same Letter (Frerard AU)

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Franks' hands are slightly shaking when he pulls the doors open. He has his hoodie on, and is hiding behind Brendon.

"Frank, c'mon. You're not going to let him see you like this, are you?"

Frank sighs, "I haven't seen him in over six months. I really haven't seen him in a year, if you want to be honest. A thirty minute phone call once every few weeks doesn't really count."

"Do you really blame him though?"

"No. No, of course not, bu-"

"Hello! Can I help you guys with anything to-...Dr. Urie?"

Franks heart expands at the sound of that voice. He doesn't bring himself to look up though, afraid that he would disappear if he did.

"Hey, Gerard."

"What are you doing here?"

Frank can here the smile in his voice. Obviously he hasn't noticed Frank yet.

"Well I ugh...I have someone here who wants to see you."

"What? Wh-"

Frank's about to look to see why he stopped, but before he can, someones arms are around him. He hears crying, and he's not sure if it's his own, or the others. He really doesn't care.

"Frank. Frank, jesus christ. Oh my god. Frank, I love you. I fucking love you. I'm sorry. I'm so, so sorry."

Frank doesn't know what to do. Gerard is panicking in front of him, and he doesn't know what to do.

"Frank? Oh god, I'm sorry. Sorry.", Gerard rushes out.

He steps away, letting Frank breathe, but his hands never leave his arm. Gerard's in ass, he knows he is. He was selfish, and he's being selfish again, but he doesn't care, because Frank is finally here, in his arms.

Frank takes a few more deep breaths before he looks up again, his body slightly shaking. He's not sure if it's out of anxiety, or excitement. He's sure it's the ladder though.

"Gerard? Are you...You're....You're really here?",Frank whispers out.

He nods, and leans in, kissing Frank on the forehead gently.

"Yes, I'm here. I'm sorry. I missed you so much. I love you. I love you, Frank."

"So...So you didn't find someone else?"

Gerard's face pours with confusion.

"What?"

Frank blushes, "I mean, you haven't been visitng...and I thought, I thought you..."

Gerard's eyes grow wide. Of course he'd think that. He can't imagine how he's been feeling, thinking that Gerard left him. Actually left him.

"No. No, of course...of course I didn't. I'd never...I just."

He sighs.

"I didn't come because...God, this is going to sound so selfish...I didn't come because it just hurt so much. I couldn't stand seeing you for only thirty minutes once every few weeks. It was killing me. I didn't know when you were going to get discharged, and I hated the feeling of leaving without you. I'm so sorry."

Frank grabs both his hands, tangling them together the way he's been dreaming of doing forever.

"I'm kinda glad you did. It hurt me so much too. Although a heads up would've been nice."

"I'm sorry."

"Stop saying that."

"But I am. I don't know how to make it up to you."

"You being here, with me, is already good enough for me. Ok?"

Gerard takes one look at the boy in front of him, and his heart goes light. Not one day has gone by where he hasn't thought about that smile, and he was starting to kinda forget, but now, now Frank's in front of him again, smiling that stupid smile.

He's falling all over again.

He leans in, kissing Frank on the lips.

"Ok."