A Secret Letter,
Dated Late 1978.
There's so much I wanted for us -
More still I dreamt for us -
For you,
And you,
And I.
But
We have the sort of love that's forced out of the light.
The type that finds temporary sweet release in breathy encounters
Shared behind locked doors.
Hidden rooms,
Forgotten places.
A love forced to endure long periods of absence,
Of distance.
Before we may once again relish in the joy of having found our way back to one another.
Back
Again
And again
And again
Back
To us:
To you,
And you,
And I.
And I am of the mind that when we part
When three becomes two
Or worse still, when finding ourselves completely separated ...
I am of the mind that in those instances
We lose our ability to be
We lose our truest, fullest selves
We lose the love that should never end
Would never end
If we could bring circumstance to heel.
So let me tell you the way I'd have had it
If I were a king of a man;
If I were a wizard who could break the spell of circumstance:
We'd never be parted,
We'd grow old together.
And, since all three of us wanted to start a family,
I think we'd have done exactly that.
Perhaps
We'd have moved somewhere new
Somewhere far, far away from this place
From all those who'd wish us ill
Or seek to harm us.
Perhaps we'd have travelled the world together
If so
Everywhere we went, I'd have kissed you both every day
Every morning, I'd have promised you the world
And every night
I'd have pulled you in close
And then closer still
As I whispered sweet praises of your grace, your beauty.
I'd have celebrated your very being
And taught you of my eternal love
By pouring it onto your skin
As my fingertips slowly raked their way up and down your bodies.
I'd have soothed when you ached,
I'd have healed when you hurt,
I'd have lulled my own self to sleep with my fingers entwined in your hair.
I'd have spent the rest of my life doting upon every bit of both your beings.
Because
When it comes to you
And you
I am a man come to worship.
I am a man
In love with a man
And a woman.
And so
I am the man now off to move both heaven and earth
If it means there's even a chance for the two of you.
Everything I now face -
Doing it
For you,
And you.
- I
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