Hopelessly - Cube SMP // Bayani // HAPPILY SEQUEL

Chapter 1

I have given up. Jordan was my only hope and the only reason I had kept dreaming and realizing life doesn't suck as much as I though it had. Ive tried so hard to make him happy and he repays me with lies, cheap, preposterous lies. I have no idea where I'm going so I just keep walking the empty streets of Seattle, the morning breeze sending shivers down my spine and goosebumps on my trembling arms and legs. I had somehow walked my way to the Coffee Shop, my second home, and unlocked the door with the spare key. There's still an hour until I have to work, but I figured I'd start preparing everything now so it's less work for Tubline. Grabbing a spare apron from the back room, I put it and and head back into the main area, starting up the coffee pots and crushing up the coffee beans, a calming task. Yet somehow this all reminded me of Jordan, and tears began to fall down my makeup less face as I fall back onto the counter and cry. I didn't want to leave him and I made a stupid mistake, but so did he and he made many. The look on his face when I told him I loved him for the last time rushed through my brain and it has seemed as if I was there all over again, face to face with the one I love. I still love him and I always will.

I realize I can't stop myself from crying and my heart feeling as if it had been ripped out, so I just continue making the coffee, soaking my t-shirt with countless tears. I laugh at how pathetic I am and realize I'm alone in a coffee shop at 4 in the morning crying while crushing beans. Its 4am, that's when Tubline usually picks me up! I fumble my phone out of my pocket and text her telling her not to pick me up, "You didn't have to come into work today." Tubline says, walking through the door.

"What'd you mean?" I ask, voice shaky.

"I went by your apartment to pick you up and Jordan was sitting outside on the stairs. His knuckles were bloody and he had tears in his eyes, Oasis. He told me what had happened and he said even though it had only been an hour, he fucking missed you."

I grit my teeth, "That's his own fault."

"Your puffy red eyes tell me otherwise, Oasis. I know you miss him." She says, filling up the coffee machine.

"Well of course I fucking miss him, Tubline! He's the love of my life and I know I messed up!" I yell, and my puffy red eyes tear up again, and they feel swollen, "but he's lied to me too many times and left me feeling so alone and hopeless."

Tubline pulls me into a hug, and she holds on tight, "You're my best friend Oasis, and I know you don't want to hear it, but I know he's learned his lesson." She says into my shoulder, "Jordan just lost the only thing he's had to hand onto and I know he will try so hard to get you back."

"It shouldn't take me leaving for him to finally realize he's a mess." I retort, and storm off into the back room.

"I'm just trying to help, Oasis!" Tubline tells after me, sounding a bit annoyed. But I really don't care at this point. I'm filled with anger and confusion and sadness and I don't know how to control any of it. I lost Jordan, and I'm slowly losing myself.