Hopelessly - Cube SMP // Bayani // HAPPILY SEQUEL

Chapter 34

"It's not your fault Ryan." I say, running my hands through my hair, hope slowly draining out of me.

Tubline walks downstairs and without word pulls me into a tight hug. I wait around for Jordan to wake up and have a nice breakfast made by Tubline.

I move the eggs around on my plate with my fork, "He wasn't drunk off his mind, was he?" I ask.

Ryan replys with a subtle, "No."

"Okay." I say quietly. Time passes, "do you know why he went to the bar?"

"He was mumbling on about finding a job someplace he loved. Its apparently another Crimsons but it's local to Cali rather than Seattle." Ryan answers my question.

I sigh and take a sip of my water. A tired Jordan stumbles into the kitchen and his eyes grow huge when he lands on me.

"Morning." I say, tossing my plate into the sink.

"What're you, why-" He groggily says, downing a glass of water.

"It's kind of noticeable when your boyfriend isn't anywhere in the house when you wake up." I remark, walking over to the counter and grabbing my cup to also put in the sink.

"I was over here I'm sorry. I left when you fell asleep to come play some video games with Ryan and I fell asleep." He blatantly lies to me, his eyes telling a different story.

"Yeah. How hungover did the video games make you? Maybe you mistook GTA for real life." I retort, my veins starting to fill with fury.

Jordan gives Ryan a hopeless look and Ryan speaks up, "I told her the story man."

Jordan clenches his fists, "Dude, you promised you wouldn't say anything!"

Tubline quietly sits at the counter while Ryan raises his voice, "Im done lying for you, Jordan! You're not only hurting us but you're hurting yourself." Ryan throws down the plate he had in his hand, and storms up the stairs, the noise echoing from the loud thuds in the stairs.

Jordan shake his head and leans against the counter, "I hate this."

I fight back half angry half sad tears, "I wouldn't have been mad if you told me where you were going, Jordan. Actually I wasn't mad until you lied to me. I had finally learned to trust you and y-you just lost all of it." Tears fall from my eyes and I quickly leave their apartment to head into my own, knowing how much Jordan despises tears caused by him. I rush up the stairs and don't stop until I end up at my bed, and silently toss myself down.

Like it was planned, a few minutes later Jordan comes through the door, sitting down beside me. He grabs my hand and plays with my hair, "I am so so sorry for not telling you. I was so stressed about finding a job that I felt so worthless and wanted to get wasted. I should've just talked to you. And I don't k is why I lied. I just let you down even more and I absolutely hate doing that and yet I keep doing it. I love you so much, Oasis and I'm sorry for being such an dick."

I sit up and face him, wiping my eyes, "I forgive you for everything. But please never ever ever lie to me again, Jordan. I have no idea if that was your only lie because Ryan said that about how he's done lying for you."

He plays with my fingers, "The only thing he has ever kept from you is that he knew every night that I went out. I always told him, but I told him to not tell you, and I guess he didn't. I am sorry."

"It's okay." I mumble, "I love you."

"I love you." Jordan replys.