Red lights

Bittersweet

*quick note: timings are not accurate for the sake of the story.

I slept while crying, which you know is the best sleep ever, although i feel bittersweet, i know that this is for the best, for my health and my career.
I get ready and head to the studio, making sure to avoid walking near Hyunjin's room.
I reach the studio on time to find everyone there, well almost everyone.
I can't seem to spot Hyunjin, is he late again? whatever, it's not my business anymore.
I say hi to everyone and grab the lyric sheet.
I suddenly smell a strong musky, citrusy cologne, and i know exactly who it's coming from.
Hyunjin: "Hey guys, sorry for being late again" he puts his bag down and grabs a lyric sheet, not looking up once.
Lee know: "how long are we going to have to deal with this Jinnie?" he teases him.
Hyunjin sighs and looks at Lee know "when the bad dreams go away" he shifts his gaze to me, his eyes are sorrowful and apologetic...what?!
I gulp and look away, suddenly unable to catch my breath, he could give me a look that says "i'm going to kill you" and my legs would still shake, i mean, they would especially shake then ;). (red lights lol)
"what are you blushing for Felix?" Han tickles my cheek.
i look up to see everyone looking at me in confusion. will my dirty thoughts ever let me live?
Lee know comes up to me, his hands are in a tickling position, oh no.
"Guys, guys it's nothing i swear the room is just...super hot" i start flaling my flannel, i am getting pretty sweaty...
I'm backed up against the wall at this point, what is with me and getting backed up against walls recently?!
Lee know grabs me and starts tickling the side of my torso, why does he know my weakest spot GOD.
I start pushing him away but that only makes the others come to hold me down.
"GUYS...guys no i'll get you guys food please NO" i struggle.
Changbin pops his head up: "food?"
Han: "who is it felix?" he playfully smiles, he has one of my arms pressed against the wall while seungmin holds the other one, god i regret surprising him for his birthday that one day...
I try to loosen their grips by moving, "GUYS" my voice mixed with whining and grunting.
"We wont stop until you tell us" Lee know says, having the time of his life drilling my weak spot.

"will you guys stop."

his voice isn't loud, but sturdy, isn't rough, but hard, isnt annoyed, but complicit and assertive. they all slowly look back at Hyunjin, his demeanor is calm, but his aura is on fire, his eyes are sunken and lacking of emotion, yet they are so close to popping out, his hand is stuffed in his pocket, but i can tell its clenched into a fist because of the veins on his arm.
we all look at each other, unsure of what just happened, our eyes agree on one thing
we've never seen this side of him, ever.

Hyunjin

I dont know where that came from, i guess i didnt want to know who it was, because i'm sure it's not going to be me.
"Ah shit" i messed up the choreo again, my mind keeps wandering. i pause the music and drop myself to the floor, i hug my knees and let the tears flow down my cheeks out of frustration. why can't i do anything right nowadays.
I hear footsteps next to the door and i quickly wipe my tears with my shirt.
"HYUNJINNIE!" the door suddenly opens to Lee know breathing heavily.
"i've been looking for you everywhere! we're playing truth or dare outside, let's go" he runs up to me and grabs my arm to pull me to the door but i dont budge.
"uh Hyunjin get your fat ass up now this is an order" Lee know looks down at me with his hands on resting on his hips, ah he sounds so much like my mother right now.
"i really can't.... i....i... need to practice!" i point at the speaker.
"practice my ass" he exclaims "come on the weather is so nice pleaseee" he starts pouting and pleading with his hands.
perhaps playing with them might make me feel better, plus we never get to spend proper time together...ugh "fuck it" i say while getting up.