Red lights

peace offering

Felix

I open my eyes to see hyunjin sleeping next to me, "what the-" my eyes widen as i recall the events from last night "we?- he!- he!!- i-" i clasp my hands on my mouth, WE KISSED????!?!
i leave the tent, unable to breathe. oh god oh god oh god. i run my hands through my hair, maybe that'll prompt my brain to work. god I'm too hungover for this right now.
As i have my mental breakdown on the floor, i hear the door juggle open. Changbin pops his head in: "good morning sunshine how was-" i grab my stuff and run past him.

Hyunjin

it's 9pm...where could he be?
i'm sitting on the edge of my bed, checking my phone every 2 seconds for a text from felix but there's nothing, i was woken up by Changbin saying that Felix ran away as soon as he opened the door does he regret what happened last night?... i play with the extra keys that i had for that practice room, i admit, i did have a key but i just wanted to see what would've happened....i just...wanted to spend time with him. and i've ruined it now, he was probably just too drunk to realize what he was doing...
i look at my phone one more time and plop myself on the bed.
why do i have to ruin everything.

A couple days later

I'm starting to go insane, where is he????? is he going to leave the group? did someone find out and blackmail him to disappear? i'm d y i n g out here.
i throw my things on the floor as soon as i reach the studio, everyone is here except well, felix.
"yo, you look like you haven't gotten any sleep, is everything okay?" Changbin says as he munches on a bag of chips.
"yeah i'm okay" scanning the room, i take a chip as i reply and right as i place it in my mouth, i hear a very familiar voice.
"hey guys".
Felix??!?!
i look up, oh my god, i'm not going crazy, it IS him.
"HEY! i didnt tell you you can take one!- FELIX!" Changbin yells out.
As everyone starts surrounding him, i back away into the studio room and signal felix to come, god i'm going to kill him. i catch his attention and i'm pretty sure he can tell that my eyes are twitching bloody murder because his face became as pale as ice, he moves away from the crowd which consists of the 6 other members probably bickering about what felix ate in the past couple of days.
i close the door behind us and lean on it.

Felix

"where have you been?" hyunjin says, his head resting on the glass door, nibbling his lips away, it's a habit he does when he's anxious, i wish i could hold his face right now, i missed it so much.
"Listen the room is made of glass, we'll talk later okay? i dont want the guys to be suspicious" i say.
"huh, okay" he pushes his tongue against his front teeth "i see what you're saying" his demeanor becomes passive aggressive.
"what- what do you-" i say, confused.
all he does is roll his eyes and open the door.
god sometimes i really wanna punch the passive aggressiveness out of him.

"okay guys we're going to record our song Ex so here are your lyric sheets" Bang chan says as he gives each of us a lyric sheet.
"Okay start the music" Bang chan yells out.

I look at hyunjin "on that day i was unusually cold towards you, with constant yawning.." i sing, not leaving his eyes.

he looks at me while singing his part "...i left you but why am i the one getting hurt"

"I'm pretending to be okay, but i can't lie" i sigh, trying to stop my tears from flowing "I miss you.." i look at him "...and it makes me regret what i've done"

"....let's just say we weren't compatible" i cant look at him while saying this part, but i can feel him scoff and turn away.

"...i'm the one who said not to worry but why am i more worried now" he looks at me with confusion in his eyes, even though his ears are covered by the head phones, i can tell that there's steam coming out from them.

"okay well done you guys!!" bang chan cheers and everyone cheers back as they remove their headphones. Hyunjin stands still, curling his hands into fists, his shirt lifting everytime he takes a breath.

As soon as everyone stops cheering, he puts the headphones down and stomps out of the room.