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Felix

i lay in the bathtub, the warm water helps me relax my tensed muscles, has he reached yet? did he tell everyone? did he talk to him?- my mind keeps wandering back to hyunjin, i try to close my eyes and forget about him for a second, but i find myself convincing my brain to go look for him again, and this time, i listen.
with barely dried hair, i get dressed and open the door to head out, when i suddenly find myself bumping into a tall figure, i step back, "i was just about to knock" hyunjin looks at his fist in the air, "can i come in?" he asks after a few moments of silence, now that he's here, now that i can smell his sweet scent, now that i'm around him, i forget everything i want to say. i nod my head and step inside. "h-how was your flight?" i ask, sitting down on the chair across from him, "it's that guy that tried to kiss me at the party right?" he asks, my breathing hitches, i nod, unable to say anything. "i kept thinking of you." he says, trying to stare into my eyes, "we're going to figure it out felix, i promise you" he leans in and grabs my hand, placing it between his palms, i missed his warmth. "i'm sorry i didn't tell you sooner, i wanted to take care of it on my own, i didn't want you to get hurt" i spit out, unable to meet his eyes "honestly, throughout my life, deep inside i never felt alright, until i met you, and ever since then, i wanted to protect you with my whole life" i look down "look, i know you probably wouldn't want to do this again anyways, but i'll never do this again, i cant if i wanted to, i cant be away from you, my heart tore to shreds everytime i saw you and i couldn't hold you...to k-" i pause, feeling like i got carried away, hyunjin looks down at my hand and opens it, drawing lines on my palm, "to what felix?" he looks up at me, his eyes filled with desire, my body gets up and steps closer to him on its own, i pull him up and slowly lead him to the bed, our eyes gaze into each other as we walk, i let go of his hand as he sits on the edge of the bed, i grab my wine glass and chug the rest of it.

Hyunjin

i stare at him as he downs the wine, god he's so beautiful. he suddenly throws the glass to the side, i put my hand on his waist, alluding him to come closer, he slowly climbs on top of my lap, i let out a breath as his warmth engulfs me, "i couldn't stop thinking about you" he whispers, his eyes travel from my eyes to my lips, he bites his lip, as if he's trying to contain himself, he tucks a strand of hair behind my ear, and i feel goosebumps travel down my spine, his lips finally collapse onto mine and i feel tears starting to form in my eyes, i thought i would never feel him against me again, i thought i'd never be able to taste him again, but here he is, reminding me why i kept fighting for him. I run my hands through his barely dried hair and latch my other hand onto his thigh, i get up and slowly place him on the bed, i dig my head next to his neck, savoring his scent with each kiss, i creep my fingers onto the buttons of his shirt, unbuttoning each one with a swift press, felix puts his hand around the back of my neck, i look up at him, and he suddenly grabs the sides of my face, i fix myself so i can look directly down at him, my necklace dangles on his chest, revealing that it's his ring around my neck, he grabs the necklace and looks at me, i watch as his pupils grow in size, he puts the ring in his palm, revealing that he is wearing his too, "i was scared i'd lose it so i put it around my neck, which also makes it as close to my heart as it can be" i say, tucking in a strand of hair behind his ear, making sure that i dont leave his eyes.

"i love you, hyunjin." he doesn't stutter.
"i love you, felix" and neither do i.

our lips meet again, this time the taste of his lips is mixed with the taste of our salty tears, i hold his hand with mine, unbuckling his belt with the other.