Red lights

My pace

Hyunjin

The ride was filled with silence, i kept glancing at his knuckles, they dont seem like they're healing. i realized that he kept wincing everytime he moved his hand...whatever, it's on him. we finally reach the award show, my makeup artist asked why my face is puffy today, i told her that i made the mistake of eating udon noodles last night, when the truth is that i was crying the whole night. Now i understand why dating isn't allowed, i can't runaway from him, worst of all is i have to pretend to be okay with him. We reach the red carpet to take pictures and i stay as far away from felix as possible. the stylist made us match today...which resulted in...."hyunjin and felix!" our manager signals us to stand next to each other. i want the floor to swallow me. now. "closer!" the photographers shout as we stand together, felix comes nearer but i refuse to move. "closer!" they shout again and i pretend like i'm not listening. i sense felix losing as he takes a deep breath, i suddenly feel him shifting next to me and grabbing my waist, my knees curl as i feel his touch and my mind rewinds to those....nights...i shake the thoughts away and pretend like i don't want to both cry and scream when his hands touch me, as we start walking away, i try to let go of his grip on me, but he tugs me again and puts his lips next to my ear "behave." he whispers and lets go of me, fixing his suit before he walks away.
we reach our seats and i suddenly hear my name being shouted, i look around to see beomgyu waving in my direction, i go up to him "ahh i havent seen you in so long" we hug. I stick to him for most of the night since i want to catch up with him and i want to stay away from felix. i'd keep glancing to his direction, sensing that his eyes are glued to us, not even trying to hide his death glare. he can simply and respectfully, stay mad. As the members start getting up for our performance, felix stays in his seat, rubbing his chin with his fingers, carefully side eyeing beomgyu and i. as i get up to leave, beomgyu grabs my arm "oh hyunjin...i'm sorry about what happened." he has a pitiful look in his eyes, "uhh...what happened?" i scoff, confused. "i'm sorry i didnt mean to-" beomgyu backs away, "beomgyu what happened?!" i ask again, my anxiety begins to creep in. "the- the rumor- about you-" he stutters out, and i suddenly feel a tug on my arm, i look to my side to see felix's face inches away from mine "let's go." he grunts and pulls me away.

Felix

"what the fuck are you doing?!" hyunjin unclasps my grip from him as we reach the backstage, "what the fuck were you doing?!" i question him back, and before hyunjin is able to reply back, I.N comes in and grabs hyunjin's hand and reaches out to grab mine, and before he is able to, hyunjin grabs his wrist "he's hurt." he asserts and turns away from me, realizing what he just said. w-what? "okay come on you need to get dressed" he says as he pulls hyunjin into the changing room and signaling me to follow.

After finishing our performance, we went back to our seats, i glance at beomgyu's direction and he seemed to be looking for someone, i look at hyunjin to see him make eye contact with beomgyu, and before beomgyu takes a step closer, he looks at me and i stare into his eyes, shaking my head, daring him to come any nearer. he takes a step back and goes back to his seat, he takes a quick look at hyunjin and then turns to his members. i don't hear or see him for the rest of the night.

We finally go back after a long night, all i kept thinking about is how it reached beomgyu, i thought i had a deal with him. "you guys i dont think i'm in the mood to drink today, i think i'll head home." i say as the members plan to go out to drink. I always feel like drinking, and i'm not heading home.

I swing the door open. "h-how did you know where i live?-" before he could continue his sentence, i grab him by his collar and throw him to the floor, punching him in the face. "it's like you want me to put your head through the floor" i spit, "wh-wha-" he pleads as i choke him, picking him up by his neck and slamming him to the wall "why. is. it. spreading." i hiss at him. "i- i dont know i swear- i did all i can to stop it from spreading-" i punch the wall next to his head "try. harder." i say, my face inches away from his, i turn away from him before i do something i might regret, i run my fingers through my hair, trying to think of what to do. i punch the wall again and i sense him flinch, i look back at him, "if i hear anyone talk about it again i swear to god-" i have to stop myself from breaking his nose this time. "you s-swear to god what felix?" he scoffs between his panting, "you know you can't do anything. i still have those pictures. if i go down, i wont go down alone." he smirks, his teeth stained with blood. i turn around and grab his desk, toppling it over with everything on it, he starts hysterically laughing. "burn in hell." i spit before i leave, slamming the door behind me.
if anything happens to hyunjin....i'll make him wish he was dead.
and that's a promise.