Red lights

wild dreams

Felix

I open the first exit door i see to find a surging crowd of paparazzi trampling over each other. I freeze, taking in the flashing lights pointed in my direction, i can tell that the crowd is increasing in size, as i slowly become unable to see what's in front of me. in between the flashes, i spot a very familiar face, hyunjin's figure slowly walks towards the crowd. "h-HYUNJIN...HYUNJIN NO!" i begin to shout, which eludes the crowd to look back, they push towards him, flashing their lights his way, his eyes remain on mine, completely ignoring the large number of people charging towards him, "HYUNJIN!!" i run forward as the mass swallows him, i swim through them, reaching my arm out to hopefully catch him, but the closer i get, the deeper the surge takes him, "HYUNJINAH!" i speed, pushing everyone out of my way, and right as i grab his hand, they get ahold of him too, right as they pull him towards their direction, sinking him into the floor he squints his eyes at me
This is all your fault.
he disappears into thin air.
i wake up to the splash of cold water on my face.

Hyunjin

I wash my face with cold water, trying to rinse away the redness of my cheeks. I haven't heard from felix since the incident in the hallway. I open my phone one last time to check if he's sent anything.
Zero notifications.
Great.
I don't want to even talk to him, i just want an explanation for his behavior, why he had to break my phone specifically...the same day i ask him to be my boyfriend...it just doesn't make sense for him to be like that, something must've went wrong. why isn't anyone telling me what's going on?
I walk to the practice room to try to clear my thoughts. I reach the room and han and lee know's eyes are yet again filled with pity, i throw my bag on the floor, "you know if you guys are going to look at me like that at least tell me what's going on." i spit out, they look at each other and back at me again, lee know begins to open his mouth but i suddenly hear  someone clearing their throat behind me, lee know looks down and takes a step back, i look behind me to find felix, standing with his eyes drilling through lee know's head, as i scan over him, i notice a purple bruise under his eye topped with a scratch. i feel my body flare up as i look at his hands, his clenched knuckles are deeply bruised with gauges of dried blood on them, i get the urge to grab him and ask him what happened but changbin beats me to it "what the fuck happened to you" changbin goes up closer, felix looks at his hands and gulps "just- uh boxing." his voice is low, almost emotionless. I.N pops into the room and pats felix in the back, "finally got him out of bed" he smiles. The dance coach comes in, leaving felix the opportunity to escape changbin's grip.

Felix

"can we go get coffee now" I.N drops on the floor as he drops on the floor, bang chan comes up to me as everyone starts to leave, he kneels down as i tie my shoes, "are you coming with?" he asks, "i think i'll pass today" i force a smile, he pats me on the shoulder and leaves with the others, i pack my bag and head to open the door, but someone comes up behind me and pushes the door closed "what the-" i exclaim, i thought i was the last one left? i look up to see hyunjin panting over me, "if you don't explain to me what's going on so help me god-" he clenches his teeth, punching the door right over my head, i try to pull the door handle but he pushes the door back and inches his face closer, "felix if you don't tell me....we're done." my breath hitches as i hear the words come out of his mouth, i try my best to pull myself back together , "we'll talk later." i heave at the door handle and leave the room, biting on my palm to silence my cries.

I throw my keys on the coffee table and surrender to my couch, seeing hyunjin today broke my heart to a million more pieces, i think back to the fight i had.
if anyone finds out, it's over for you, both.
his words send chills down my spine, at least i was able to break a couple of his ribs. I look down to see my knuckles bleeding again, i get up to mend them but i hear a knock on the door. "hey felix" chan stands over my door, "do you wanna- oh god your hand, let's go." he grabs my arm and shoves me out of my apartment.

"4 stitches felix, really?" chan comes into the waiting room, i look down to the floor, i feel like a child who got himself hurt and currently being scolded by my dad. "are you going to tell me what happened?" he sits next to me, i sigh out as i feel my tears creeping in "i should've never gone with this in the first place" i rest my head on my palms, chan rubs my back. "my worst fear came true chan, and if i don't put an end to us...." i start thinking of the worst case scenario, a pit starts forming in my stomach. "it's only going to get worse." i look to chan's direction, unable to restrain my tears. my heart drops as i see hyunjin's shadow standing over the doorway.
"what's going to get worse felix?" his face is pale blue.