Red lights

jealous much?

Felix.

I blacked out.
after he said the word "some one" everything went black, when i awoke from my trance, i realized that i had been clenching my jaw the whole time.
Hyunjin: "do you want to grab a bite?" he said, still panting.
say. no.
me: "i could eat something".

we reach the common room and sit down, deciding on what we should make, we suddenly hear a rustling from outside. it's 10pm, no one should be awake, Hyunjin and i look at each other in fright, Hyunjin raises his brow, it's his way of asking what we should do.
Me: "well someone needs to go, and may i say, it's not going to be me" Hyunjin laughs.
Hyunjin: "let's rock, paper, scissor it"
me: "nah uh you know how scared i am of the dark"
Hyunjin: "true true" he nods "okay! how about you walk behind me, i really dont want to be alone. i'll protect you!" he whines.
i cant help but smile when he whines like that, it makes my head think of things that i never thought i'd....forget about it.
me: "okay. okay, but promise to not leave me behind" i reach out my pinky finger
Hyunjin: "Lee Felix, i would never leave you behind" he smiled charmingly while intertwining my pinky finger with his, i put my head down, trying to mask my red cheeks, him saying my name does something to me. i think of the note and i gulp, i look up to find him tilting his head, his mouth slightly open, trying to catch my eyes. what are you looking for?
our pinkies were still intertwined until we heard something falling and we both had the instinct to hold each other's hand, we look at our hands and then look at each other, his cheeks turned bright red in a millisecond, he suddenly removed his hand from my grip and looked away, his cheeks still as red as a tomato. the rustling grew louder and both of us got up, Hyunjin stood with his back facing me, as the rustling grew louder, he surrounded his arms around me, it's as if he knew that my heart was beating thrice the normal amount, without even touching me.
He tilted his head back: "shhh shh, it's okay, you're safe, i'm here." he says while looking at me from the side of his eye.
the door suddenly opens and we both scream and i jump on hyunjin's back, holding on like my life depended on it, and surprisingly, he did too, his grip on my thighs, my legs on his hips....my body is completely against his, my head is right next to his, my mouth almost touching his ear, something drops on the floor making Hyunjin tighten his grip on my thighs, making me let out a slight moan into his ear, even though it was dark, i could see hyunjin's eyebrows raise and his eyes practically pop out of place, i jumped off his back and turn around....I really should've said no.

Hyunjin.

holy fuck. this isn't going to help. at all.
Changbin suddenly comes out of the room where all the rustling was coming from.
Changbin: "sorry i took a while, i was deciding on what i wanted to make" he says, obviously noticing my red cheeks, he looks at Felix.
Changbin: "oh Felix is awake too? i thought it was only gonna be me and you" Changbin says while closing the fridge door.
i look at Felix and he's clenching his jaw, it's a habit he does when he gets aggregated.
shit.

Felix.

Changbin: "whatever is going on between you both can be resolved later, now what do you wanna eat?" he says while biting into a spring onion.
Hyunjin: "i'm not hungry anymore, i'm gonna go get some sleep" he didn't give me the slightest bit of eye contact.
me: "no no stay, i'll go, goodnight you guys, see you in practice tomorrow" i say as i walk away, avoiding Hyunjin's eyes as much as possible.
why do i feel so.....jealous?
why am i so mad?
did i really think he was going to confess to me while we ate? how can i be so stupid.
the note was a joke, a prank, whatever you want to call it, he was going to prank me but maybe he got tired or something came up I DONT KNOW!
Hyunjin doesn't have feelings for me.
He never did and never will.