Ok imma clarify rn, this is literally just me writing out my feelings in Karl's life rn- like it's my one outlet so I'm sorry, feel free to skip this chapter if you'd like.
TW: panic attacks, mentions of sh
CW: none (not really anything fluffy or like, sexual at all, so idk)
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"It's so exhausting. Having to live life. Don't get me wrong, it's amazing. I meet new people, I do new things. I'm with you! But I'm just tired. There are so many things on my mind that I don't know how to handle it all." Karl mumbled, playing with his fingers.
Sapnap sat next to him, sympathy and slight hurt written all over his face. He wished he could help the brunette, in any and every way. He'd go through hell and back a million times for this boy if he had too.
"I hold it all in because I feel like a burden. I don't even like telling my therapist anything because I feel bad she has to spend time on me!" Karl said, voice cracking.
"I'm stressing about school, like, I don't wanna do it. I know it's freshman year, I'm not gonna die. But it's already stressing me out on day two. All the bullshit drama that's so fucking stupid with people is exhausting. And then like, my body dysmorphia, oh god." Tears glossed over Karl's eyes, his lavender gray eyes, turning more gray than anything.
"Karl baby..." Sapnap said softly, holding the brunette's hands.
Karl shook his head and sighed. He already felt guilty for saying anything, and now he felt worse. He knew Sapnap thought he was pathetic. He knew he was pathetic.
"Baby listen to me. You don't need to feel like a burden. Because you're not. You're a kid just struggling with mental health. And that's ok! You're doing what's good for you. It's ok to talk about things, you don't need to feel guilty." Sapnap explained, kissing his cheek now and again.
Karl still wasn't convinced. He probably never would be. He just could let that feeling of being a burden go. He knew others had it worse, and maybe he could have it worse than he did. That's why he kept it to himself. There's more important people and things than him.
"I'll always be here for you Karl. You're the light of my life. I'd do anything to see you be ok and happy hunny. Don't feel afraid of bad about talking to me." Sapnap whispered, pressing a soft kiss to the others lips.
Karl sighed contently at the contact, instantly melting into the kiss. He smiled softly as they pulled apart. Karl knew Sapnap was right. He knew he'd always be there. And he knew it's be ok.
But he knew it'd take time. A lot of time. Time he knew he'd have to make, and use to get past this.
But he had help. He had Sapnap.
So he'd be ok.
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Unfortunately, unlike Karl I'm actually dealing with this all by myself tee hee, ok anyway have some angst while I finish up the fluff chapter, should be up within the next hour hopefully
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