Con Todo El Corazón (C. Madrigal)

Before I Say Goodbye

Y/n's Pov

The sky was a perfect shade of night blue complimented by the summer wind hitting me Camilo's skin, holding eachother in the hammock as he carefully ran his fingers through my hair.

"When do you think it'll happen?" I ask him carefully above a whisper, Camilo just sighed and said "There's no telling when, I just know it will mi amor." He said as he kissed my forehead

My tears had finally tried and my throat finally healed after a few hours of crying through worry of when or if we could have a child. I started to think if I was even cut out to be a mother, then began pondering the harsh situation between me and my mother.

It's stuff like this that really gets you thinking, "what did I do wrong?", "was I not good enough to be your daughter?"

It gets me wondering if it's me, Camilo swears it's only against my Mama and not towards me considering the rest of the people in my life notice me for a genuine person with good intentions.

"I got away from her for a reason." I remember my sister, Inez saying to me when we got into discussion on why she fleed home several years ago to come find the only other family she knows, being me of course..

Hey I've gotta say, I'm overjoyed the girl finally settled down with a man who loves her so. I can't imagine not having my Camilo too, he's like an angel sent from above.

"Maybe I was too much for her, and I dont mean to bring up someone else but I can't use the substances as an excuse because if I was good for anything before that I-" I choked on the last part of my sentence as my teenage memories came flooding back, forming into fear.

"You what mi vida?" Camilo asked with worry in his voice. I look at him with teary eyes and a quivering lip "I got cheated on. Betrayed. Exchanged for something better. I thought I was good enough on my own until someone I thought I mattered too gave me up like trash, not to mention my Mama was the next person to do so, her reason being that I was nothing but trouble.."

"Hey hey hey, Y/n breathe. I get it, I know this loser broke your heart and left you hurt with a trauma that's hard to forget, but I promise you his choices had nothing to do with you. This guy sounds like any other irresponsible and careless desperate teen."

"But if I had handled my heartbreak better she wouldn't ve given up on me-"

Camilo gently turned my head to face him, "If you hadn't made mistakes you wouldn't have seen her true colors. Do you get that Y/n? Something good came out of it all, you got away from those horrible people just in time, you learned from your mistakes, you made something better for yourself and I'm always gonna be proud of you and reminding you why you should be proud of yourself too."

A knot formed in my throat and my chest felt tight, I couldn't say anything but all I could do was bury my face in Camilo's chest and mumble sweet nothings to the sweet boy.

"Shh." He whispered gently stroking my hair, "I'm here mi vida, and I'm never going to leave you. You and I are inseparable now."

I shrugged "I guess we both learned the lessons we needed when we were young teens.." I shuffled myself up to face Camilo, "we both had our first loves that pushed us to eachother and.. now I know wouldn't wanna be with anyone but you."

I gently placed my hand on Camilo's cheek gently gliding my thumb back and forth, he looked at me dreamily with his heavenly green eyes.

"We were simply made for eachother." He spoke

"You're right, I guess I didn't realize that either when I blew up on you that day for talking to your ex girlfriend.."

"Yeah I remember that, but don't worry cause you being such an amazing human being you had to have some kind of slip up eventually.." he chuckled "besides, I learned what I needed to learn from that relationship too, it made me a better person for you mi reina." He finished off kissing the back of my hand

I smiled up at Camilo before I rested my head back on his chest looking up at the sky, "Where do you think we'll be several years from now?" I ask

I felt Camilo sigh like he was taking a minute to gather his answer, "I don't know, the only thing im sure of is that I can look forward to it as I'll be alongside you.. but I'm hoping deep down I won't be the only one.." his voice got quieter as he gently guided his hand to my belly.

I felt my heart beat begin to race out of excitement and I looked up at Camilo, "oh mi amor, that'd be amazing.."

He grinned, "a child as beautiful as you.."

"Or as handsome as you.." i whispered

We could only face eachother for a short while before eyeing eachothers lips, it didn't take long for the distance between us to vanish.

Often times dreams have no way of telling us their coming, to me, arriving to Columbia was somewhere I never expected my future husband to be..

It's true about what they say when it comes to being young and clueless, maybe my poor reaction to my heartbreak and those stupid risks I took with my highschool friends cost me my reputation in Y/c and my conditional relationship with my mother

Instead it bought me the bond with my sister I never knew I needed, the warm and unconditional comfort of my father, the unspoken apology to Julissa...

..and without a doubt the Madrigals..

Today, I love Camilo Madrigal, and no matter what happens tommorow, he's the best thing life could've led me to.