Secretly in love

10. You're cold then hot

ThisJ: Finally miss sick girl laughed to my dad jokes!  @imursummer

I know I'm gay, I'm sure of it but when a Jaden Torres post me in his instagram? It made me damn blushed.

"If only I knew that gummy bear jokes will work on you" Jaden mentioning.

We're hanging out in the cafe, my thank you gift because he spent a lot of time and patience for me to passed the special exam.

"Thanks Jaden, I really appreciate it and your gummy bear dad joke"

He clicks his tongue before boastfully shrug "well, what can I do? I'm super cool"

I can't get rid of my smile. At least, I somehow felt a little bit lifted.

--but the smile in my lip slowly fades out when I check who sent me a message.

Ice 💙: where are u?

Just one message and it caused my heartbeat to speed up.

"You okay summy?" Jaden checks on me. I pushed this heart palpitations then nodded.

"Just uhm....my mom checking on me" I said in alibi then place down my phone in the table.

I took a sip on my iced coffee and really trying not to bother by Ice sudden message in the middle of the night.

"So, you really like here in seaside?" Jaden asking then looks around.

I watch and listen to the soft see breeze as it automatically put a smile in my lip "I like watching the wave meeting the sand, the sound of the seabreeze and the smell of the sea. In here, I feel safe, calmed and relaxed, just like the sea" I admiringly say.

My eyes furrowed when Jaden offered his hand to me "let's walk beside the seashore, come on"

Staring at Jaden made me realize that Ice is very lucky to have him and also, it gives me the peace of mind that Jaden is someone I can trust and for sure, he take good care of Ice and love her unconditionally.

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It is after midnight and right now I'm waving to Jaden as he dropped me off to my place.

--but still bugged in just one message coming from Ice.

But then everything turned blur as my sight only focused to Ice leaning against the wall, next to my door and also looking at me.

I took a deep breath and tried to act normal as I walked over.

"I don't know if you still trust me but I swear that Jaden and I is just friends -if ever you're wondering that I'm taking him away from you, I'm not and never will be" I say then encoded my door passcode.

"I texted you"

I took another deep breath. How long was it? Almost 3 weeks and now she gets to show up casually in my house?

"For what?"

"Mom wants me to bring you this"

I nodded then get the paper bag "I'm gonna call her to say thank you" then went inside and closed the door.

".....summer" I leaned my back against the door, waiting for whatever she has to say "it didn't come from mom. I bought it-I heard you're sick for week....why didn't you tell me?""

The tears automatically dropped. It hurts me because we end up like strangers, back to zero. What made me cry more is when I chose to be away from my family but was set aside because of a man? When I never intended to be on her way.

"I'm sorry Summer" my lips trembles as I shut closed my eyes then look up "I guess it gets the best of me"

I deeply inhaled then exhaled before walking away from the door.

5 hours passed and the last time I checked it was almost 1am and now just woke up in time to prepare for my 8am class. I get up and check what's inside the paper bag.

--it was my favorite miso soup, my go to soup whenever I feel sick, together with beef ramen.

I reheated the meal then savoring all of it. I guess, I'm pretty okay compared last night so I took the time to clean myself and had a warm bath before deciding to clean the messy house and dispose the trash.

My feel halted the moment I realized that Ice was still here. She actually fell asleep while sitting in the floor beside my door.

I hate it, because my heart instantly melts down. Just one sight of her and everything is driving crazy again.

"Ice" I calls out and she immediately stood up.

She look so tired with those baggy eyes "what are you still doing here? Don't you have a 7am class?? Why didn't you go home to sleep?"

"I just wanna check on you. Are you okay now?" she lifts her hand but stop before it reach my forehead. We stared for I don't know how long, but one thing for sure, I'm staring at her with shaky tears, until she pulled me into her arms and for all I know, I was already sobbing "I'm so sorry Summy, I'm such an ass"