Secretly in love

33. My First Heartbreak

'Ice'

"Summer"

"Hmmm....Ice, I uhm..."

"Summy wake up"

And when I slowly opened my eyes, she was there, staring at me...."Summy move to your room"

I blinked a few times before it sinks in that she isn't a dream anymore....then look around with the TV still on and my left over food was still in the table.

"Ice...." I sit up, still feeling half asleep but also confused why she's here? "Aren't you supposed to be sleeping in the quarters?" She still has graveyard shift and when I look at the wall clock it's past 10 and her next shift is 1am.

"Yeah but I can sleep here" then sit next to me.

"But you always sleep at quarter because of the hassle driving back and forth" then remember that she still not yet have a dinner so I stand up in a little panic of at least cooking something for her "wait your dinner, stay there"

I walk towards the kitchen to check the fridge for supposedly her morning breakfast pasta.

"Summy it's okay" she says but I already put the microwaveable dish then look at her.

"Do you want any drinks to go with your sardine pasta?"

.....she smiles, she smiled at me and all of a sudden it brightened everything around her....I guess living with your best friend whom you secretly love is dangerous.

"You talk to your sleep. You call my name"

"What?!" But her now grinning is not helping of how I'm feeling embarrassed "whawhat did I say?? Ddid I say something??"

She frowned, "no but, are you gonna say something?"

And it's like something heavy was lifted up from my chest after hearing that I didn't un subconsciously confess my feelings...."no, nothing" then made a fake laugh.

After her late dinner we went to our own room but woke up in the middle of the night to check that she already left but.....sent me message with a picture of her....

Ice 💙💙💙: im back at the hospital. Goodnight summy.

This is the exact reason of why even in my dream you're still there.....I might be sleeping with a smile tonight.

Me: ok happy shift Ice!