I met her in high school, we started as frenemies then turned out best friends and for 8 years of being with her, my heart started to secretly fell in love to my bestfriend but what's the catch?
--She's straight while I hide inside the closet.
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I parked the bike while catching my breathing and wiping my sweaty forehead.
"Fun right?" Gigi asked.
For the last time, I took a very deep breath to stabilize my breathing "it is super tiring. The last time I did biking was when I was a little girl with dad" she hand me an opened bottled water and I took it, drinking like there's no tomorrow.
"See? I told you. You just need to busy your mind" she mentioned which I surprisingly agree "and now you didn't know that the day is almost over"
What? I immediately checked my phone. It is almost 6pm and Ice left me one message.
Ice 💙: where are u?
"Keeping yourself busy makes you forgot your feelings" I look at Gigi soft smile.
She's actually right because compared before? My mind was on Ice, to what she's doing, where she is or who she's with.
"I take it back" I say to her as we walk down the road "you're not an ass" it made her chuckle and I do too.
"I actually received a lot of feedback like that"
"It's because you're very straight forward"
She shrugged it off "That's the only straight thing I can do" it's lame but it made me rolled my eyes and laugh.
We walked our way to the direction of my place, we're too exhausted to pedal. We even stop by to the convenience store near my building to have some gulp while chilling outside and watching people passing by.
"So....what did your parents say after telling them about who you are?"
She place down her drink and giving it a thought "they actually knew. My dad has his hint because growing up, I never like dolls"
I hummed, thinking about when I was a child "but I like dolls?"
It made her chuckle while I frowned of what's funny? "It doesn't work like that. Everyone has their own time, you know? When the reality hits them"
".....when I first saw Ice....my heart skipped a beat" for the first time, I admit it. I never share this to anyone, not even Veronica because I feel like she will understand the feeling. "She look so cool, something about her is magnetic, to the way she moves, to everything she does and at first, I thought, maybe I envied Ice....then I start to channel that odd feeling to hate when she won over my friend as a President. I hate her but I guess....it was just my alibi...to make interactions, so she can notice me"
And that memory is making me feel so silly right now. You know like, when did things that make us cringe after realizing it? Mine, is that memory. Of how I made fun of Ice just get her close to me.
"Then if ever I didn't do anything back then....she will never notice me....I will be just her classmate and nothing more....because I don't have that effect to people. I'm just average that no one will get notice in a crowded place and Ice is the opposite" I stared to nothing while analyzing everything, of how different we are, of how I get lucky. "She always attracts, always stands out and always a head turner. She's a person that you cross by then makes you look at her"
