Secretly in love

45. Talk

It is already after class but finding myself walking around to think because I don't want to go home yet. I guess I'm not ready to talk to Ice or face her for the meantime.

I halted after seeing Gigi shooting in the basketball court in her casted left leg but this time she is looking frustratedly mad by how she throw the ball in the wall before sitting down the ground and messing her hair.

She tilted her head after watching me sitting next to her with a pressed lip smile ".....summer" the tears that she tries hard to conceal burst out and seeing her completely naked in emotion. I pulled her into my arms, letting her cries out everything. The fear, her frustration and everything that she tries so hard to hide.

"It's gonna be okay we're just in the beginning and life starts after graduation. I know you'll find your way back there again" when did I become so expert in giving out advices?

——yeah, I should apply that as well to myself. This is only the start of Ice and I beginning.

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Gigi is so brave to drive after her accident and we both had a car accident but maybe our guardian angel raised us a tough soul. I, neither not scared to drive even after the accident but unfortunately my car exploded.

She offered a ride but I wanna stay out a little while and asking her to drop me off nearside the sea.

I sat and watch the sea breeze while thinking that I still have 2 months left before the graduation, before Ice move to Netherlands....so instead of sulking, I should be enjoying every seconds while we're still together or regret in latter part.

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Ice Lee POV

"Aren't you supposed to be going home?" Nara, one of the intern asked as I found myself still sitting in my table after doing rounds an hour ago.

"I'm just gonna finish this one" I say to her.

She nodded before waving good bye then walking out of the room and just in time when Anderson entered in a knowing look.

"So this is you making excuse to avoid summer? that instead of communicating, you rather get busy here?" I look up to him.

But he is right.

He sighed after not getting any response from me then sat to his table but still staring. "Ice, you guys took forever to figured out that the feeling is mutual because you guys are not good in communication and that is happening again if you will keep your thoughts locked inside your genius head"

".....what are you planning when you move to Netherlands?" I embarrassingly asked.

Anderson leaned against his swivel and play with his pen by twirling it around his finger then smiles at me "she's moving with me there" he proudly says to my face.

I bring back my eyes to my laptop screen which is Summer sleeping in her most favorite, comfortable yet weird position and that is like a frog  ".....I don't want to be selfish..... because as much as it is tempting to ask her to move with me and find her life there, I rather not ask it. She already moved miles with me here and sure she has her plan too and I want to be there for her to support. I want us to grow individually to our careers without compromising each other choices"

"But there's more right? Say it Ice, you know how I can oddly read your expression even how much you conceal it"

I let out a short chuckle at it as he wait for me to speak.

Being accepted in Netherlands as medical intern should be a proud feeling but it actually stands the opposite for me.

"Ice come on dude. You know that most of people who had a heart attack are those people that's keeping their feelings unsaid"

I defeatedly sigh in surrender and tilted to him "Ever since I heard about Netherlands hospital, it became my target goal. I knew what I wanted but when the opportunity presented itself....what I want changes and right now, I'm too tempted to decline it and just be whenever she is....but if she hears this? She's not going to like it"

"You know how to solve that swarming thoughts?" He paused then lifting up his index finger and pointing at me "both of you need to talk."

After that talked with Anderson, I went to my home but stopping few meters in the entrance to see summer halted from walking as well.

Just one look at her and I knew that she cried and I hate myself for always making her cry.