Secretly in love

43. From cold to playful

I got out from the shower a little bit relax compared earlier but halted after hearing Ice talking over the phone.

"We'll talk when I get back....I don't know, let's just keep it a secret for now...I'm gonna tell her about us but not now"

Maybe I forgot how to breathe while hearing it all, maybe someone spilled a bucket full of ice over my head, maybe this is just a bad dream but not when I unawarely knock out the flower vase after leaning for support in the vanity table because it felt like any moment everything will go blackout.

"Summer are you okay?" Ice ended the call and watching her checking on me "do you feel dizzy? Don't move okay?"

The door opened with Ice mom looking worried and telling something that seems blurry to me and before I could go back to my senses they're already cleaning the broken pieces in the floor.

"Honey are you okay?" Mommy asking while placing her palm against my forehead.

"Yyeah....uhm...just" I don't know what to say but my heart is aching.

"What did you girls did the whole day huh? Honey why don't you help her to bed and lay down first then I'll call you when dinner is ready" Ice is about to hold me when I walk on my own towards the bed.

I sit on it then look to mommy "I think I'm gonna sleep" mommy is against it but still nodded before closing the door and leaving the two of us with this intense atmosphere.

"and the dinner? You need to eat Summer" Ice densely stating

I tried to smile to her but couldn't even fake it, "we ate a lot in case you're too caught up to your phone"

She exhaled before running her fingers over the head "right. I forgot how you seemed happy back there"

I opened my mouth but too astonished to hear her sarcastic statement "...should I not? We're with Rita and Seb, supposedly and normally it should be a fun day catching up with old friends"

"Never mind" she then walk back to her sit and stick her face again to that damn phone!

Watching her like this is making me question if it's really worth it that we threw our friendship over a relationship.

My shoulder slumped down while trying hard not to cry while she act so cold.

"Are you not a happy......with me?"

She stop scrolling "....Summer what? Oh shit, why are you crying baby?" and because she noticed, it only makes me cry more while she immediately run towards me "no, it's not like that" and gulping me into her arms and now I couldn't stop the tears from coming more "I'm sorry, I never want to hurt you"

Ice won, she always does. Just one sorry, one hug and no matter how I held up my walls it always crashes down when it comes to her and right now wrapping my arms around her body while sobbing subtly.

"I just had an important thing to settle" she softly rubbing my back and placing her chin on top of my head.

"Are you regretting us?"

She held both of my cheeks and making me look up into her frowning eyes "never baby, not a chance, I'm sorry if I made you feel that way" and pecking a kiss on my lip then another one and another but the one stays a little longer until she tilted her head before thumbing down my lower lip for access.

But I had to get a grip and break the kiss but already seeing her furrowed eyebrows "I want more" she softly beg.

I'll be lying if I say that it didn't makes the butterflies fly inside my chest after hearing it but had to stand firm and act like it didn't affect me, "then why it seems like there's a gun in your head the whole time?" Yet she held her silence and just stared down "Ice Lee you better tell me or I'll just believe that you don't like this relationship at all"

She look me in the eye and I swear that it's different. Her gaze was soft, far from cold.

"Tell me? Please?"

"Why are you smiling the whole time while looking to Seb like you like him back?"

I know she's dead serious but why does she have to be this cute?

"Just...never mind" she's about to stand up when I halted her and pulling back to the bed "it's not funny Summer, stop smiling"

Why is she such an adorable big gigantic baby while sulking right now?

"But Seb is just around 18 years old or something?" I'm really trying to shut down the growing smile while staring at her.

"You know he has a crush on you ever since we're high school. I can still remember how he always hold your hands whenever we're at the mall"

Okay I giggled a little and it didn't suit well on her basing the pissed expression in her pretty jelly face. I never in my dream imagine to see Ice this jealous.

"He was just 8"

"Before fine but how about today? He's a grown up man that still likes you and he isn't shy about it"

I smiled, guess the heartache from earlier was easily dissolved. "But I like you not him. I like you from the start and up until now"

Am I seeing this right? Is Ice the cold nonchalant princess is currently blushing and shy?

"But why are you smiling the whole time whenever I look at you staring at him?"

"Because I just can't believe how many years we're gone but looking at Seb all grown up and about to enter college reminds me of how much years we're together back in San Diego. Of how we left this town as best friend and what are the odds of coming back as my girlfriend and you spoil it by acting like you are being forced" remembering it makes me feel a little bit annoyed of how our first date was ruined by her sudden cold mood.

"Summer what is it?"

I bit the inside of my cheek while staring at her before finally letting it out, "our first date was ruined. We didn't even had a fun last day before going back to school"

"We still can enjoy the night"

I frowned "how?"

"You can help me out for my practice since I skipped hospital duties"

"Oh...sure hospital scenarios. I watched New Amsterdam so I have some idea"

She smirked and what is that supposed to mean Miss maam? Because seems like a bad idea is about to happen....

"I'll be the doctor and you'll be my patient"

"Oook?...what do you want me to do Doctor Lee?"

Her eyes drop down to my body then turn back to me, yet something the way she looks at me is making me tense, "let's do a full body checkup Ms. August"

"Ffull body??"

She nodded "let's take off your clothes first so I can start to check you out" then pauses and giving me that cheeky smirk "don't worry Ms. August, I'm a professional doctor"

I pushed the lump inside my throat and sure that my whole damn face and body is on fire while she playfully smiles at me.

"Hello, dinner is ready girls" Mommy opening the door "are you okay honey? Are you sick Summer? You look so red right now"