Secretly in love

49| I'm her girlfriend

Shit! "I'm so sorry" then immediately pick up the broken pieces of the coffee mug in the floor that I unawarely nudged a second ago.

"Summer!" Devon urgently pulled me up, wrapping her hands in my wrist.

"I'm sorry, I—I didn't mean" my heart doubled its nervousness.

She sighed before pulling me with her, walking into the kitchen and putting my hand under the running water.

I didn't know that my finger is bleeding.

"You're so clumsy" she lowly stated.

We're at the hotel restaurant, they are having a conversational meeting while I was following but I had to admit that my mind is somewhere else's.

More on thinking of Sam and Ice. Especially when she only sent me a one short message that she just got home and nothing else follows.

And right now my whole system is overthinking. I couldn't focus, I keep on checking my phone, keep on ringing her but nothing, there's nothing and this loud pounding of nervousness is driving me crazy.

She dry my hands while the other staff gave her the first aid kit.

"Wait—ouch! That stings!" I groaned after she poured the alcohol into the open wound.

"Then don't be clumsy" her tone was impatient and so is her deadly gaze. "If your attention and focus is not here then better leave"

I pushed the lump into my throat while gauging her stern gaze.

Another mistake. I keep on doing mistake over mistakes and it is embarrassing.

"I'm sor—"

"Go, but make sure that you're staying the night here at our hotel because you're under my responsibility Summer. I'll call you if I need something or you can call me" she says between putting bandages on my finger.

Her calm tone is still sinking inside. Of how she sounds understanding and it caught me off guard because I thought she's going to fire or scold me in front of everyone.

"....thank you" of why a tear slipped out but immediately wipe it off then faintly smiled.

I turned around back from her but halted to step when she grabbed my arms that I had to look back "I'm serious Summer. Call me if you need. And don't be clumsy, whatever happens to you in here will be on me"

"Yes, noted" she lightly nodded before sliding off her hand from me.

****

I know their apartment, it is easy when their place is not far from the hospital.

I'm gonna surprise Ice but also feeling very nervous. It has been more than a month since we last saw each other personally although we had video calls and pictures updates, still, missing her sets different.

It is just afternoon and just like before, I know her schedule and right now she should be sleeping coming from a graveyard shift.

I make my way to the elevator, feeling all the butterflies in my stomach while holding tightly the spare key that she gave before she left in case I come visit and no one is available.

From ground floor to 14th floor and my heartbeat is raising to every floor until it stops to 15th.

I stopped right in front of their apartment, feeling 10x anxious compared from earlier.

I'm gonna see Ice.

After inserting the keys and gently opening the door, the dim apartment appears. Their curtains are still down since they work at graveyard shift.

If I'm not mistaken, Ice room is on the left side with the whole place looking so familiar due to our constant video calls.

I walk into the direction of Ice room while wandering around. The small organized kitchen, living room and two doors in front of me.

And when I'm about to open the door someone already did.....

It feels like my heart suddenly stop beating after locking gaze to a familiar girl.

Sam.

We both looked shocked to see each other. But what myself is nervous about, of why she's in Ice room? With her bedroom hair, in oversized shirt and looking like she just woke up.

"Who are you? And how did you get inside?" She meanly asked.

For a second, I lost how to speak while my head is still internalizing what the fuck is happening?

Of what the hell she's doing in Ice room?

"Hello? Are you mute or something?" She says between snapping her finger in front of me.

I look behind her shoulder and saw the person who's still sleeping in the bed. A very familiar person and it is breaking my insides.

"Are you friends with Ice?" She once again asked.

Mustering all the courage to be able to speak, I say "who are you?" and holding the tears. Controlling the shaky voice not to break apart.

"I'm Sam, her girlfriend and you?"

Just those words and my whole world is shaken. My breathing suddenly hitched. It feels like my whole body turned cold, shivering.

"Ggirlfriend?" I repeated in disbelief.

And unawarely my steps are backing away.

Away from the place before turning around "Summy, hey" Anderson says after bumping to his chest "why are you crying what happened?" He tries to hold my shoulder from stopping to get off in front of him but I avoided it and finding myself running away from him, from her, from Ice.

I couldn't breathe. Maybe it's just in my head, maybe it's the brain telling me that I couldn't but it feels real, especially when I start to clutch my shirt and gasping for air after getting inside the elevator and leaning all my weight to the wall while couldn't believe what just happened.

Of why suddenly everything turned chaotic.

......and Ice is calling me but it only doubled the ache.

There's nothing in my head but confusion and hurt.

She promised not to hurt me.

To never ruin our relationship over curiosity but what is happening?

It only took one month and our friendship and relationship was thrown away.

I bumped to someone after getting out of the elevator but not caring at all and just continued walking away from the building.

Lost. I feel so lost while looking around.