Secretly in love

44. Be proud

"SUMMER!" The quiet and calm cafe turned out to be chaotic when my friends saw me entering inside and the first person that hugging me until I felt like gasping for air is Vero "I miss you so damn much! Damn it! how Ice is so lucky to have the liberty to fly back and forth because of her dad being a pilot!" she whines like a kid.

Anderson lifts up his hand to high five Ice behind me. "How's my dork friend who finally decided to admit after long damn years of hiding it"

"What?" Vero tilting to Anderson while Joanne is also cluelessly confused too as they're both waiting for Anderson to speak out.

He grinned at how Vero and Joanne stun puzzled.

Vero point up her index finger to say "Summer has been secretly in love with her best friend for a very long time"

But causes Anderson and Carlisle slips a chuckle "No way because we witnessed how my shy girl here is getting absolute jealous every time Summer is around Gigi"

And I stand shyly while watching them exchanging words before Ice whispers what I want to order "my usual please" my voice sounding little that only the two of us can hear.

I guess we both feel shy around our friends with Ice cold face comes back.

But if only they knew how my lips go numb by her being so addicted to kissing me and please I'm not even going to complain about it.

Ice walk over the counter while I sat next to Vero and the 3 of them are still debating of who fell first between the two of us, but to me? It doesn't matter.

"It's just sad that you two just got together but they will be moving their medical course in Netherlands for at least 6 months while being lucky to have an internship already" Carlisle telling me as if she thought that I know it but eventually figured out of how shocked my reaction was "Oh shit! She didn't tell you yet?"

And when I thought that I'm done hurting, this comes like a train running over me.

Carlisle reached out to my hand in the table while Anderson seemed guilty about it and now we're all silently watching Ice sitting next to me then placing the coffee in front of me while my inside is trying not to tear up.

Maybe it's not yet tomorrow but my heart is already sinking down in the bottom.

Everyone turned quiet with the atmosphere turning from happy to now tense "Summy what happened?" Ice lowly asked.

"Is it true?" I start but took a deep breath before continuing while already feeling my heart being squeezed. "Are you going to Netherlands to continue the medical course there?"

And she was caught off guard. Evidently, she's not planning to tell it to me but when? Is it gonna be the day before their flight?

"I received the letter when we're at Denver and I didn't say it because I don't want to ruin our day" her tone is as it usually nonchalant while her eyes is gauging my reaction and I know that this is something to be proud of. She always wanted to take her residency there and given that it is included in top 10 hospitals in the world, it is a huge opportunity for her in future and I'm so proud of her but also sad that this is the reality....we have to part ways....

"Wow! Congratulations!" Then averted from her, switching to Anderson with the same big smile but deep inside its the opposite feeling "you guys, make us proud there okay?" my voice may seems happy but I'm caving inside....

Who I'am to feel selfish right now? This is it, her dream is starting to come true and of all people, I should be super proud for her first huge achievement.

I look down under the table when she hold my hand and the sadness doubled instantly while holding my tears.

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"Summer....." I sniffed and for the countless time wiping my eyes while staring down to my phone screen "Netherlands to Denver is almost 10 hours flight"

Vero sighed loudly then patting my shoulder as we're both inside in one cubicle with me sitting in the toilet and she's leaning in the door.

And what's more heart clenching is they are going to move there after our graduation to start their medical course and formal residency and there is so much more.....If the hospital likes them? They will be offered to continue their residency over there.

That is a very good news but why does it bring more tears to me?

"I'm sure you guys can work it out"

I nodded sarcastically before saying "Yeah like you and Xian right?" She shut closed her mouth and it is too late to realize that I hit a spot "Sorry."

Yet she exhales "it's okay but so you know we're different Summy. I'm a crazy obsessed and possessive girlfriend but he still chooses me after our countless breakup and makeup and hundred percent sure that Ice will do the same. You trust her right?"

"We're just new in this relationship so how do I know if I trust her?"

"Good point" she says and making both of us scowled. "Maybe you're considering to work there? I mean, someone should adjust right? And Summer, that time you already graduated while she still has a lot of years until she officially becomes a doctor so why don't you give way?"

She has a good point but "doesn't it make me obsessed and not trusting her?"

Vero paused for a moment and considering that thought. "Kind of?"

"See? and I don't want her thinking that this is gonna be a toxic relationship. I want her to feel that I trust her, I'm proud of her, I will support her but also proving my own achievement to her as well" so that means we really have to separate ways.

For nth time she exhales exhaustedly "and now I'm thankful that Xian is an engineer"

That statement only made me narrow my eyes of how she shove that to my face. "Thank you very much for saying that proudly"