Secretly in love

36. Ice and Sun

"Thank you for coming even it's last minute and almost midnight, sorry guys" I said to Vero, Xian, Carlisle, Joanne and Margot.

Yet my aching heart craves for only one person and I think I shouldn't see her anyways or I might not step inside the airplane and completely change my mind.

"You stay safe there okay and send us pictures!" I nodded to Joanne.

I have no luggage, just my backpack so it saves me the time to fall in line.

"Of why so sudden Summy? You shook us!" I can't help not to tear up after seeing how they all care for me.

But I need to heal. I need to prioritize myself. I don't know how long I'll survive of always hurting and worst seeing them officially together. I just need a break, an alone time for my thoughts.

"I miss my home and I need to recharge"

Carlisle nodded at me then hugged them one last time before waving goodbye. Turning your back means no way of pulling out. Because when you turn around you have to walk straight and never ever look back.

"SUMMER AUGUST!" I jolted when someone screamed my name, too loud that it made everyone attention turned to the direction of the voice including myself.

——both her hand is rested on her knees while she's catching her torrid breathing and still in her scrubs.

I can't help it when my lip curled down before it completely breaks my walls of seeing Ice in here and watching her walking towards me.

"You'll just left without telling me?!" I stared in blurry tears...lost on what to say because right now it hurts so much. It really hurts so damn much.

"II-I'm sorry....but I had to" then tries to wipe my tears but it keeps on falling nonstop.

She looks up and for what I see, she's trying to hold her shaky tears—is she sad that I have to leave or she just feels sorry after reading my message.

"You're not going anywhere unless I say so"

I chuckled in tears of hurt "I just need a break from you or else I'll be your next patient if I continue keeping this in myself, because, it goddamn felt like anytime my chest is going to explode with relentless pain" I wipe my tears but, hell, it falls continuously "I know I said that no secrets between us but. I can't. I mean I tried to stop it...many damn times and I'm so so so sorry that I fell in love to you and I'm not expecting you to reciprocate my feelings or get in the way, but I'll breathe okay? Just let me go for a while so I can be truly happy for you" I genuinely smiled to her but why does smiling feel like tearing apart?

She took a step forward and never expected her next move when she lean down to kiss me, I was too stunned to react....is this real? Am I still inside in one of my dream?

It is just a seconds before she pulled away but her lip stayed carved to mine. "I'm secretly in love with you too Summer, how can you never have the clue?"

I'm too stunned to speak....her words are still processing in slow motion inside my head....it feels like, my ear heard it but my brain is malfunctioning.

"so please don't leave me hanging here"

"Bbubut Ice....what, what about Jaden?" His timing is perfect when he appears behind Ice but my puzzled thoughts diverted back to Ice "I heard him saying that you're officially dating in the hallway"

"What?" She frowned for a second before slipping a smile "It's not me. It's him and Bree, I'm just helping him out"

It turned out her explanation causes more questions in my head, of what's going on?

"So that's the reason why you're going back home for good?"

Okay that is a roller coaster of confusion right now.

"What?"

"Vero said that you sent a message that you're going back to Denver tonight"

And I nodded because that's right and now looking to Vero in questionable brows "Maybe I overreacted?" She says, currently looking puzzled, "what I meant is. Summer is visiting her parents for a week because luckily our major professors are all flying to Seattle for guesting a culinary competitions  and also, duh, we're graduating but for sure I didn't mention for good?"

Then Xian raises his hand in what seems guilty "I might added a little bit push. I thought it was lame because we all knew that they are graduating but didn't expect for you to actually believe it, actually never expected, because you're smart" then clicks his tongue as he gestures to us "but isn't that worth it? Because now you guys seems like you're both hiding your feelings. Two besties who secretly love each other"

And everyone turned to the newly arrived Anderson who's also in his uniform, also catching his breathing "and what did I missed guys?"

"Finally, a confession that apparently they are both secretly in love to each other" Carlisle kissing Anderson cheeks before leaning her head to his shoulder while looking at us.