Learning to Let Them In | Fourtris

Chapter 16

Tris' POV

Chapter 16

(I threw a teeny weeny little time skip there. Only like, 6 days. I promise!)I wake up with a start. Not screaming, but sweating and trying to get my heart rate back down to a normal speed. Another nightmare. Is that a big surprise? No, I didn't think so. It's only a day until the dreadful September 28th comes. My birthday? Ya! Let's celebrate! Good times! Also the day your whole family died? It kind of kills that mood. Completely.

When I finally get my breathing and heart beat back to normal again, I get up and go into the bathroom. I turn the faucet on and splash some cold water on my face. I turn the water off, dry my face off with a towel and look at myself in the mirror. It only lasts for a couple of seconds though before my mom's voice pops into my head. "It is selfish and self-indulgent to look at yourself in the mirror."I look away quickly. Besides, I'm still the same ugly girl as I always have been. I go back into my room and check the time on my phone. 3:32 am. I sigh. Of course it's in the middle of the night still.

I get back into bed and use this time to figure out how to tell Tori I'm talking again. "Hey Tori. Guess what? I'm talking again. Started last night. Gotta go to school now! Bye!" Ya, no. "Good morning Tori. So what are you forcing me to eat this morning?" Too harsh. "So I started talking last night. Just don't tell anybody. Except for Four. He already knows." Too straight forward.

I huff and pull my pillow over my head. I don't know how to tell Tori without her fainting or being a statue for minutes on end. All I know is that I will tell her. And that's not a good start at all. I groan in frustration. All of a sudden I hear a dinging coming from my phone. It better be good. I don't want something to make me even more frustrating.

By the time I get the pillow off my head and turn to look at my phone, it's gone black again. I reach over for it and turn it back on and see a text from Four. "Watcha thinkin' about?" I can't help it. I smile a little bit. I know I could just turn around in the window, but I am already warm and buried in my blankets again, so I decide just to text back. "Just thinking about how to tell Tori I talk now. Anything I can think of is either too straight forward or harsh." (Four's is bold, Tris' is not)

"Harsh?"

"Ya. I don't think she would like the whole, 'Good morning Tori. What are you forcing me to eat this morning?'"

"Forcing you to eat? I'm missing something here."

CRAP. I forgot he doesn't know about my eating! Crap, crap, crap. I reply the only way I can think of, hoping he'll think it's a joke or something between just Tori and I. At least I can hope.

"It's nothing."

"You sure about that? I'm not buying it."

"I'm fine. It's nothing Four."

"Don't do that. What is it, really?"

"It's nothing important. I swear."

"I bet if I asked Tori she would beg to differ."

"You wouldn't."

"Don't underestimate me. I will if you won't tell me."

Are you serious? Would he really? I throw my head back and stare at the ceiling. Of course he would. If he thinks that I'm sick or something, of course he would ask Tori about it. She would tell him. I know that. So I can either tell him here and just make it very undetailed, or he can go to Tori who will over exaggerate everything. The choice is easy.

"I don't eat as much as I used to. It's no big deal. Tori thinks otherwise."

"Mmhmm. I'm still gonna get after you for more details, but that answer gets you off the hook for tonight. You're lucky I like you, or you'd be answering me with as many details as you could possibly come up with."