When the Sun hides

Nineteen

He carefully placed me on the bed and sat on the side. I was still burying my head on his chest while his hand was caressing my back, soothing me.

"Ken..." I cried because of so much pain, physical and emotional pain.

"I'm here, Ga. I'm here." I hugged him tighter like I never want to let him go. "drink this." His voice was like a whisper. He handed me a cup of water and medicine. I took it and wrapped my arms around him again.

If this is a dream, ayoko na magising pa.

"Ken..." I mumbled as I continued crying.

"Shhh. Rest now, baby." I pressed my body more to him. His voice was my lullaby, it was warm and gentle like his touch.

***

I woke up with a dry throat. I glanced at the clock and it was already 6 AM. Thankfully, my headache was gone. I looked at the right side of my bed and it was empty. I remembered being with Ken. Hindi ko lang alam kung totoo ba iyon o panaginip lang. I also noticed that my clothes were changed. Hindi ko rin alam kung ako ba nagpalit ng sarili kong damit. Hindi ko na matandaan ang nangyari kagabi. Ang alam ko lang, I was having extreme headache.

I sighed as I touched the empty side. How I wish he was really with me last night.

I found a glass of water on the bedside table. I just drank it then slumped my body on the mattress, again.

I let out a deep breath.

May lakad ulit kami ni Vincent ngayong araw. Parang tinatamad ako, pero kung hindi ako sasama, buong araw na naman ako na nakatulala at magiisip ng mga ginawa kong desisyon sa buhay.

I could still feel Ken's lips and touch like those were real.

I miss him. I miss him so much.

I glanced at my phone when I heard the message tone.  It was Vincent. He said Good morning and that he was on his way.

After heaving a deep breath again, I pushed myself out of bed. I went to the bathroom and took a bath. I didn't bother to have breakfast. I just went on dressing myself in long sleeve patchwork paneled dress in khaki partnered with brown ankle boots.  I also applied light makeup to cover the puffiness of my eyes. Just in time of arrival of Vincent, I was done preparing myself. I got my handbag and had one last look in the mirror before walking out of my room.

I took a deep steadying breath and reminded myself to be as enthusiastic as I can.

"Good morning." I smiled at Vincent as soon as I opened the door. He was about to say something with his mouth open but suddenly stopped and only stared at me. He looked like he was too stunned to see me, just like yesterday.

I inclined my head to the side to distract him.

"Ah. Good morning." He finally told. I just smiled. I even noticed him scanning my whole look. I did the same. He was wearing a maple brown polo shirt tucked inside his black pants and partnered with brown leather shoes. His long hair was slightly a mess but complemented perfectly with his looks. He is surely a head-turner.

"Tara na?" I said.

"Ha? Sige. I mean, let's go." I suppressed my giggles as we walked to his car. I fastened my seatbelt and settled on my seat. He did the same too kahit na may pasulyap sulyap pa rin siya sa akin.  Eventually, he let out a deep breath and then started the engine. "Umm. Your dress looks so good on you." He said. I looked at him and his eyes were focused on the road but his right ear was turning red. I simply smiled.

"Thank you. You look fine as well." And that time, he glanced at me, showing his dimple as the sides of his lips quirked upwards.

"By the way, how are you feeling now?" Bigla niyang tanong. And I know it was about last night.