Lovers in the night ✦ myg & pjm [✔]

24. [my number one]

The next day Yoongi came by again but this time we didn't stay at home. Yoongi planned a day to Seoul for the two of us.

With Starbucks in our hands we are waiting for the train. I look around to see a few other people but luckily it isn't that busy today.

"Nice coffee?" Yoongi asks. I nod with a fond smile while taking another sip.

Our heads turn identical to the left when we hear the train. With the loud screeching of the brakes the train stops and a few people walk out before we walk inside and search for a spot to sit.

We sit down opposite to each other. I look out the window and see a woman sprinting to catch the train. Just before the conductor blows his whistle, the woman gets in.

I look at Yoongi who seemed to have been looking at the woman too. "Excited?" he asks when he notices I took my attention back to him. "I haven't been in Seoul for so long! I'm so excited to see what changed. You?" I reply.

"I have a very close friend living there so I spent a lot of my time there. I will be your guide for today," he smirks. I lift my eyebrows, "I wouldn't be opposed to that idea. Please show me everything Seoul has to offer!" My sentence ends with the train continuing its travel.

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My eyes widen with joy when we are standing at the beginning of a busy street surrounded by tall buildings. I turn around but Yoongi isn't behind me anymore.

I look around, already panicking, but calm down when I see him looking trough the window of a small shop.

I quickly walk towards him and notice him inspecting a guitar that is hanging in the store. "Let's go inside," I say but he quickly denies. "We don't need to. Let's go somewhere that we both enjoy," he says while taking a step back from thee window.

"It's fine. I don't mind," I say but he insists. "No I don't want to," he grabs my hand and we start walking trough the busy city streets of Seoul.

Once in a while I would look over at Yoongi, admiring his wavy hair moving in the wind.

a bit later...

We walk besides a crowed park where a lot of couples, friends or just people alone, are sitting down in the grass. I point towards it, "Let's sit down for a minute!" I say excited and drag Yoongi behind me while walking towards a free spot for us.

We sit down in the bright sun. "Isn't this nice," I say and look over at Yoongi. "It's cute," he says.

After laying next to each other in the sun for a while Yoongi suddenly starts talking, "Why did you leave me?"

I lift my head to look at him with a confused expression. "Why I left you?" I repeat and he nods.

"Well um," I start, being kind of taken back by the question, "I told you right? It's because I didn't quite understood my own feelings and I was hurting both of you which I didn't want to do."

"But you still spent time with him," Yoongi mumbles.

"Um hello? I spent time with you too! And can't we just say Jimin? It's not like it's a taboo to talk about him, please," I groan and lay myself back down into the hot grass.

"It made me quite upset," he whispered, probably not wanting me to hear it but I did.

"Really?" I ask. Out of the corner of my eye I can see him nod. "That wasn't my intention. I just enjoy spending time with Jimin, but I enjoy spending time with you too."

"Do you still love Jimin?" he asks. I sit back up again and put my arms around my legs. "I do, but not like I used to. I love him and I care about him but that's it. We are just friends."

I turn my head to look at Yoongi and see a slight smile appearing on his face. "Yoongi," I whisper. His face turns blank again as he looks up at me.

"It doesn't matter who I love more and besides," a short silence filled our conversation, "I love you more than anyone right now."

His eyes widen out of pure shock. I slap a hand across my mouth, also shocked by what I said.

"You do?" he mumbles. I slowly drop my hand and look at him.

Do I love him more than anyone right now, that's the question. The question that has been following me ever since I met him. I wanted to say no, because of Jimin.

I always tell myself that Jimin comes first. He comes before family, before school, before anything. He is my best friend so why wouldn't he?

But that's slowly changing now.

He betrayed me. I don't want to see it like that but it's the harsh truth that I can't deny. He should've told me about the other girl and he should've told her about me. What he did was wrong but I forgave him. That's what friends do.

But forgiving him didn't mean that nothing changed. He's definitely not my number one anymore. He's my friend and I hope, I really hope that that will never change. But we aren't lovers anymore, not like how we used to.

My number one changed. The one that I love most isn't Jimin anymore. Right now I know who my number one is. Everything of him tells me that he should be my number one. He's worth it and I know he isn't going to fuck it up.

"Yes, I do love you more than anyone right now."

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nina