A collection of poems about a positive day in september.
September 29th
In the past few months I've come to see how much addiction has sucked me dry,
I've become a shell of myself, I have grown used to deception and comfort in the madness.
With a shaky voice I say I am ready to do things differently.
I am unsure how this will go, but I am ready to change.
I do not love having a secret I have to keep behind curtains, I no longer need to run.
Life isn't something I need to hide from anymore.
I have so much light, I think it's time to let go of what once was.
Letting go
I am letting go of a life lived as a ghost,
I often felt as if I needed to hide beneath a bedsheet to keep the judgements from sprouting, now I have a different perspective.
I am not someone who needs to be hidden under a carpet and dressed as a ghost, I can be whoever I want to be.
I don't have to lock myself behind bars, I am not a criminal, I have a lot of life to live and I deserve to show it.
I once wrote about living authentically only to look back on those poems with a heavy heart, now I think I deserve to look back on my days knowing they were living happily.
I am letting go of the poison,
I often found that drinking would stop the rain from pouring but it also stopped the sun from shining.
I want to be connected to the world, not watch it in a movie theater.
Life is not as enjoyable when you're always worried about when you're going to get caught, why would I ruin what I already have?
This life of mine is beautiful, who am I to throw that away?
Here comes the sun
These past few months have been dreary and full of endless rain.
The clouds darkened the sky, the trees were destroyed by the rain and wind.
Life was dull and it seemed as if the storm never ended.
Suddenly and without reason the sun began pouring its light onto me,
Although the trees have been torn they can grow once again,
The patches of grass are filled with four leaf clovers, I just know it.
The light is here.
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Candlelit midnights
PoésieA poetry book written during a darker time in my life, covering topics like addiction and relapse along with happy and romantic moments. Although the original title was different I choose this title to represent how writing was a light in the dark...
