Always

34

Spencer James

After he left the Baker's, Spencer ended up at one location he knew would help clear his mind. It was the peaceful serenity of the beach. He found himself positioned on a rock. His nostrils crinkled as the smell of salt water traveled up his nose. Spencer enjoyed the sounds of the waves crashing against the rocks as he sparked his blunt.

"I was scared to fall in love with her. Scared to give her my heart. Paranoid she was gon' leave if my ends get low. And shit...here we are ma" Spencer said took a pull from his blunt. "I'on know ma, maybe this love shit ain't for me" he spoke out. 

Spencer exhaled the smoke from his nostrils as he glanced up at the stars. He weakly smiled as the stars flashed and flickered in the midnight sky.

"Moms you right" Spencer chuckled. "A nigga trippin'" he said as he took another pull from his blunt.

He continued to sit with his thoughts as he watched the ocean waves. 

"Everybody know I love that girl but I know she sick of my bullshit. I done ran her off" he chuckled, pulling Olivia's wedding ring out of his pocket. "You think we gon' work this out, ma?" Spencer inquired as he glanced up at the sky again.

Sadness clouded his features as the stars did not glisten. He was afraid his relationship with Liv had no point in return. 

Spencer's thoughts were interrupted once his phone began to ring. He stared at the caller id, sighing before answering the phone.

"What up J?" Spencer answered after the third ring.

"I just wanted to make sure you good" Jordan said.

"You saw her remove her ring...of course I ain't good" Spencer chuckled as he placed his blunt between his lips. "But I ain't tryna fuck up my high right now so we can talk about this later" he told Jordan.

"I'll let you get to that" Jordan spoke. "Just stop by the house in the morning so we can continue this conversation" he said and then hung up the phone.

***

"You better be lucky I love you boy" Mr. A chuckled as he closed his front door behind Spencer. "You know I ain't openin' the door for nobody. Especially at five in the mornin" he entered his living room.

"I'm sorry to disrupt your sleep, Pops. I know you have hella questions right now" Spencer said as he sat on his couch. "But this is what I wanted to show you" he said as he removed Olivia's ring from his pocket.

"That's a ring" Mr. A squinted his eyes.

"Olivia's" Spencer said as he stuffed it back in his pocket. "She's done" his eyes narrowed.

"The fuck did you do?" Mr. A's pupil flared. "Don't tell me you don' cheated cause I'ma have to fuck you up-"

"Pops I ain't cheat on Liv" Spencer clarified. "She was upset I went to Mexico after she told me not to. But I only really went because I was also upset she wanted to speak to that nigga Quinten after I told her I wasn't okay with it" he explained.

"So the both of you still don't respect one another and lack in communication is what I got from this" Mr. A chuckled and Spencer sighed. 

"I'm not even gon' lie, the shit is taxing. It's a constant roller coaster of emotions from both ends" Spencer told him. "I'm startin' to think we jumped into everythin' too quickly. The relationship. The marriage...hell all of it. I don't think this gon' work truthfully" he continued.

"The both of you are young, hard-headed, selfish, you don't know how to communicate, you react off of emotion rather than logic, you-"

"You can chill with the brutal honesty" Spencer told him.