You Saved Me, I'll Miss You. (A Dan Howell Fanfiction)

Chapter 62, Chloe (cont.)

*****WARNING***** THIS IS THE SMUT CHAPTER! IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO SKIP OVER THIS CHAPTER THEN JUST WAIT UNTIL CHAPTER 63 IS UP OKAY? THIS WILL BE QUITE GRAPHIC SO IF YOU ARE SENSITIVE PLEASE READ AT YOUR OWN RISK. THANK YOU.

Dan towers over me on his elbows, and gently kisses my lips. I run my fingers through his hair, and gently pull him closer. Will this hurt? How long after will I be sore? Is it everything that everyone says it is?

These questions soar through my mind and Dan pulls away.

"Are you okay? Are you sure you want to do this Chloe? It's perfectly fine if you don't want to, and if you want to wait." I shake my head.

"Dan, I'm barely legal, and I'm a virgin. How are you even controlling yourself right now?"

"Chloe, if only you knew what I wanted to do to you. I am so willing to do this that it hurts but I want you to be ready and willing too. I want it to mean as much to you as it does to me."

"I'm okay Dan. I've heard it hurts, so please be gentle this time, but I am ready for this. I have been waiting for this for a really long time." I am completely terrified but in a good way. You know that feeling when you are about to do something crazy and really really fun, but you are nervous to do it at the same time? That's how I feel with this. I have been waiting my whole life for this day and I am super ready and excited, but I'm also so terrified that it could go horribly wrong somehow.

Dan moves his kisses to my neck where he gently starts sucking at a really sensitive spot. Holy fuck...what is this feeling? God...

He slowly starts sucking harder at the skin, and I feel a little bit of pain mixed in with pleasure. He's leaving a hickey. Oh god Jenna is going to have quite a few remarks about this.

He gets off the mattress so that he's standing, and removes his swim trunks slowly. Finally, they pool around his feet and he steps out of them.

So, I've seen penises on the Internet. I've gotten dick pics over messaging sites and apps, but I have never seen a grown man's dick in real life. It is the strangest and most awkward thing I think I have ever gone through, and I feel myself blushing pretty severely. Dan looks concerned for a moment, but then starts smiling a cheeky smile.

"Have you never seen someone naked before?" he asks.

"Um, not quite in this fashion," I am struggling with my words as he turns around and zips our tent shut.

He strides back over to the bed and starts kissing me again. I'm trying to kiss him back but his, little buddy is on my leg and I swear I've never been so confused and unaware as to what to do with myself. All the sudden I'm thrown back into reality when Dan whispers in my ear.

"Arch your back," he whispers in a deep but quiet voice. I do as I'm told and he reaches around to my bikini strap. Oh.

He looks at me with such gentle, concerned eyes and doesn't break eye contact while he slowly unties my bikini strap. I look at him with all the confidence I can muster at the moment as he pulls off my top piece. I see his eyes fall to my breasts and I blush even harder. Why is this so awkward? Isn't it supposed to be comfortable?